Saturday, January 17, 2009

i just realize that if a person waited too long himself/herself also will get tired... like myself. i try look back at all the points i hv miss or think it all over again... the truth is always been sitting in front of me. as for myself now.. i just wanna work after i grad... where about i wasn't sure yet it's either Singapore or other country than my own country :) tat's my very very very last decision... not going to change anymore for sure.

something had come to end but hey life has to go on... :) so i continue my old life... be with my old buddy... computer :P as i always do.. haha hope it din get mad i do such a thing to it LOL. am i getting nuts or wad? haha

oh i need to welcome my very good friend KARYEE!! linked me :P big big welcome karyee :D:D

Saturday, November 1, 2008

firstly i wanna wish everyone happy halloween :) and everyone did enjoyed themselves that night, i guess im the onli 1 who left out but what the heck.. who cares. anyway i really dunno what some ppl really thinking... their tot just so weird that i cant put any logic sense to it. i just dun get it why wanna say sth that they oredi decided not to do and tell me another thing =.= pretty fucked up right?

these probs is piling up and it's still unsolved... shud i just leave it there? or shud i do anything bout it? it's 6 more months away till i get away from here. anyway autumn just passed... it's just like a blink of eye... very beautiful scene but just for very short moment onli... and yes lil sad to see the leaves dropping down from the trees. i really wish to share those pic to u guys... but camera hving prob =.= dammit so many time it din go wrong when i wanna take the beautiful scene then the prob came. the 2nd semester working in production almost finish... and Kiel is finishing his program. =] good for him. and 3 more months to go for myself. hope working wif Hisako will be a pleasure and coorperating well :) or maybe it's all too early to say those? hmm... in other words we will be happy working togather? haha who knows.. not much to say but i had to stop now... take care guys n hope to see u all very soon :)

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Saturday, November 01, 2008

Monday, September 29, 2008

normal Monday... well it's an easy Monday actually ^^ got Adam, John around help us out and of course... their friends, David and Jennifer =). there're things i will never understand. 1st is... hmm... why my housemate always gives me hard time on Sunday? o.o specially midnight.. i need to wake up at 5am for work but their laughter loud till woke me up.. 1-2am in the morning... >_> why why Sunday? why not Saturday or Friday? and yet surprisingly they were all slept at 2am during saturday night when i go for Kiel's BBQ party then another friend's bday party... just strange really strange dun u think?
2nd most of the ppl say why i so serious? o.O tat's even more uhm.. haha dunno how to say.. well i din smile tat much onli mah >.< and when i concentrate on working... how to smile? haha same goes to when i playing basketball xD i do smile or laugh when ppl joke or w/e =) and yes i dun joke much in real life and hving communication prob too =x well tat's me. tried to change for some reason but i feel like staying like the old me for now.. somehow... there's some kind of pressure is on me. not from work or studies tat's for sure i really enjoy cooking ^^

sigh i tot F.E.A.R. harder mode can hold me slightly longer but no.. it get much quicker for me to get through somehow =x. there's a certain of the difficulty but yea... i played omos whole day and im half way done = = mayb it's just short?... hmm.. nvm still got the hardest mode i hvnt try =p. one day... one day i shall try it.. before i go back to msia of course =] in this 1 year time i really dunno how i gonna spent it. no mood for online games ( laggin yet not much friends) offline games... just 1-2 days then im finished the game.. oh man. i cant repeating play those offline game for so long would I ? O_O i guess if i did... in 1 month time my hair will be all gone LOL. keep tearing it coz of boredom xD this blog also have been silence for quite some time... =x
hmm... i shud stop here then... take care guys =)

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Monday, September 29, 2008

Saturday, September 13, 2008

this week i occur some prob with proofing pastry/ bread item. i was told that im too aggressive by Chef Christopher around Tues/ Wed and the next day i encounter the same thing but not proofing but baking the product. well it start with the superior lesson, they need mini brioche that we need to bake for the chef's demo. and we shape it for the day before but it's not the equal shape then we had to do the 2nd batch half of the quantity from the 1st batch. after we shape it then it's proofing. i forgot bout the timing and yet the proofing size. they need to prove at least twice the size. prolly i do too much cuisine bout rushing things or can do things faster in a way. am i put too much patience on waiting wei lee and lost most of the patience on other things? is wad they called that balance? hmm... no idea bout it

the 2nd prob i have is baking... i need to make biscotti recipe. after that chef show me how to shape them and there's a small 1 we can test it. right away i set to bake the sample, but i read the recipe by mistake and get the wrong timing of baking. i should've notice that i did biscotti before during my training in sheraton imperial sigh...i knew something was wrong bout it but i just couldn't tell wad it is till i really realise it but it's too late. i pulled out the biscotti around 15min baking time and it suppose to bake for 35-40min at least and the sample biscotti is wasted. well that's not a cheap experience. same goes to my 1st accident after i get my driving license.

i've been kinda zha dao/ zha dou since i left my dish plate in the washing place, and guess wad? no1 will help wash even just 1 small thing... like it got some kind of deadly poison or curse if u touch other ppl dish... they really wan to count every inch of everything, i mean come on... help a little bit wont die would it? i would slice myself if they die for helping others. it's really pain in the ass = = and yet i do help out sometimes if there're dishes. it's just weird... really weird. or maybe i act like an outsider in the house? i just want to be alone in my room. din talk din mean i angry with someone or what so ever.

now i still miss wei lee alot... and yet i had this kind of tiny lil prob to deal with. hell? and my msn sentence make my mum worried all over me = =. it's just not the time to tell yet that i really cant tell hope they understand. sigh problems keep coming one after another.. although it's not big 1 but if i just leave it like tat it can be a big problem after =/ and i still have 1 year here. i really dunno i can make it through or not... it's oredi hard that i miss wei lee lot, then all these problem came. im like what the hell man. sigh and i dunno how to deal with this yet. nvm i'll figure it something to deal with it sooner or later. i'll stop here... thanks for reading my friends miss u all alot as always cant wait till i get back, and of coz take care u all!!

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Saturday, September 13, 2008

Monday, September 8, 2008

few weeks passed.. i guess i still cant let go of it... sigh, but thanks to Eugene i feel bit better somehow, sometimes ppl just need some advise when they're down... things like this i just cant stop thinking bout it... the more drama or movie i watch the more i will think of her.. =/ those love stories... always makes me remind of her. sorry to say i dun think i can find another her in my world... i just miss her so much that i cant stop thinking for a day... =(

yesterday night was my worst night ever in the apartment.. i had to wake up early for school and yet my friends all chatting laughing till late night.. i was so pissed that night, from 10pm i sleep till 1am they keep waking me up. luckily i wake up on time this morning.. there're many things i dun like bout my friends... they talk alot when watching movies... hardly kept their promise more like nvr =.= there're lots of unreasonable things happen i just dun wanna say it out here yet... mayb till the day i really lost control of myself. or mayb i will hold all this for another freaking year?

there're things i really dun understand... i dun speak that much din really mean i dun speak at all. i just need some time of my own. my friend likes to try find something to talk to me = = i just felt very zzz why wanna do so? if i want to talk i will talk. most of the time here im emo*ing and they still wanna "try"to talk to me. i mean like i really need some time alone. i guess i shud stop here by now... take care guys... miss u all as usual..! best friends forever!!

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Monday, September 08, 2008

Monday, September 1, 2008

I just saw the 2nd picture of them... well i finally can see her happiness showed in her smile. im glad to see and yet i felt like a knife stabbing my heart. i guess it's good to put an end for now... finally? hmm... i wasn't sure bout myself yet too... i also dunno why when comes to relationship things i always blindfolded myself. it just happened everytime. or am i asking the right question to get the right answers? hmm... really have lots of doubt. i tried on go for easy going life but when comes to relationship.. just gives me a big headache or maybe lots of things i need to know and not just by look and my problem is always solve things by looking it less question sigh...

i guess the depressing will keep it on for weeks. and it's finally sept... my work-study program gonna start soon as i going to sign the contract 2moro... 6months to go to superior.. cant wait till then. but yet i still got lots thing to learn from the Chefs, every chefs in Le Cordon Bleu have my deepest respect to them. their work always amazed me. come to think of this i wish the time dun pass too fast as i still want to learn from them but think of wanna go back msia i just cant wait till this 1 year pass like a blink of eye... sigh. decisions decisions always go hard on me. if life is like a movie, drama, cartoon or even just a simple song that would be great for me. since all those are all planned.

there's lots of things i dunno how to put an end... and i keep on going and going, even myself think im annoying sometimes too. dunno how to put this in example but i just did those all the time.. sigh. i guess i had to stop here... take care my friends.. ciaossu

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Monday, September 01, 2008

Monday, August 25, 2008

i understand that i shouldn't bring my emotions to work but i just cant help it, the more i dun want to bring it the more i'll think of it. i guess i still cant make to a professional yet as dun bring other things like emotions to work. although it's just a simple few sentences, it keep running through my head, that's the hardcore. yes there's still hope for me a tiny little string of hope. i will hold on to it still just that i wont do anything till the date i set for myself as the finals, but of course thanks for the little hope that she gave me.

what fate or love at first sight... i dun really wanna think bout it already or even believe it. my estimation for relationship things is the worst part ever... none of it get me right before. so many things i wish to happen it just turn out the other way. maybe im not that kind of guy who knows how to deal with these things. most of the ppl do... well but i dont. yet many ppl comment bout me good things, sigh i know i am what i am it just that i dunno how to express myself most of the time to someone. express myself or even just find a simple topic is the hardest thing i find in a conversation.

i dunno how long this will take me to go through though, maybe a month or 2 or maybe a year? time is really unknown to me for sure it will takes me a while mayb more than a while. i know crying cant solve anything or do anything with it but sometimes just cant hold on to my eyes get wet a little right? unless im a robot. at the mean time i try to deal with the emotions the most priority things i need to aim for. i guess i have too many sentimental song to make my eyes wet from time to time. i wonder it's there any songs that can help me hold up my tears? joking.. maybe hearing those sentimental songs might help me get stronger? who knows.. anyway i shud stop here.. thanks for reading and take care my friends...

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Monday, August 25, 2008