Monday, July 21, 2008

normal day.. normal Monday... abnormal morning haha.. me and Kiel(my classmate n colleague) forgot to take pastry item on Friday, so it's a little mess this morning. i doing my same thing, fruit tray while Ania (another colleague) take care of the pastry item (usually). i dunno what happened to Ania but she seems like not feeling well, anyway she left early.. oh well as we continue working.. Eddie, George, Amin, Hisako help us out some of them on schedule in production kitchen some volunteering. and we finish the work really fast and i really mean it hahaha =x thanks for their help!! very appreciate it.. =)

the most funny thing today it's when Hanosh, my friend also hahaha (paiseh lots of explaination in this blog =x) he says tat.. OMG JING SPOKEN!! haha for u guys info.. i really hardly speak, typing more =x i think most of the ppl knows that who used facebook or msn contact with me =X so yea haha i would say it's just another fun day =) my 1st month out of 9 had passed just like tat... without i realizing it. as i said few blogs ago.. time always flies.. cant even hold then for another second or minute.. sigh.. i really wish to have a time machine.. =x lol things will b very different by then =x

i should stop here... take care my friends... and thanks for reading... ^_^

Friday, July 18, 2008

Tuesday... i went to school as usual at 6am, and chef Christopher asked me to stay till Intermediate butchery workshop over around like 10pm or so. then.. mayb i standing too much and carry some heavy stuff so i think i hurt my back that night, cant say tat.s lots of work that night just vacuum pack those lamb part. but that night i just felt my legs very tired.. and i reach home almost like 10.30-11pm that night.

so the next day i go to school at 8am as chef told, then i work like normal days.. but sth juz dont feel right on my back. it getting more pain then i tell chef christopher and i took half day and the next day off. the sad thing i had on wednesday is.. i thought i can play holic whole day but i hving trouble connect to server for whole day -_-" these things will never change... zz most of the thing i wanna do in my mind mostly wont happen -.- so fucked up =x (excuse with the language) lol

anyway... i need u guys' advise.. shud i send the letter? i planning to write a new 1 =/. i have more than 2 months din contact with her.. no news from sook wan either or i would say i havent see sook wan online after that.. @_@. i've been thinking more and more things too =(

well back to my school.. working with the chefs i would say it's rather fun than pressuring.. they have jokes that hardly stop in the kitchen, teasing every1. and i still the silent me as usual haha... chef Christopher and chef Armando always say i very silent =X well i havent change myself for so long oredi i dun think i can change it in a short time ><. i do try to speak more with some1 though. i tried very hard but things without reply will gives me a bad feeling about it. or i can say it will makes me think lots of negative things =x

so my dear friends.. hope to see ur advise soon!! thanks yah!! miss u all so much... *countdown on going back msia in a year +* take care y'all~~!!

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Friday, July 18, 2008

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Tues.. i go to production kitchen as normal days, but since the Road Grill show it's shooting in our school area and most of the student are missing in action at the show, chef force me to go there too sigh.. dun really like to be in tv.. lol well i did spent some time there... i guess i'll be on the show one of the episode..

at night i read a forward email sent from my cousin.. about horoscope, it says that my horoscope is.. very soft hearted, very sensitive, very curious, daydreaming, think lots nonsense. hmm.. i guess everything it's right for me LOL im sensitive in a way. plz try not to think side ways XD. daydreaming? of coz! hoping things tat wont come true.. isn't that called daydreaming? lol. curious.. hmm i would say yes, if things din say clearly i will ask till i get it right (sometimes only) =p. think lots of nonsense also true, I've been thinking lots of nonsense for few months oredi or i can say years? lol for the 1st time all things correct hahaha impressive =p

well nothing much happened today but juz another tiring day.. that's all =) and of coz take care my friends hope to see u guys soon. need to countdown 1 year from now =p ciaossu!!

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Saturday, July 5, 2008

well that guiding new students day it's kinda bad lucky i got Anya to help me out =x i really suck at communication lol.. Chef Christopher n my friends know i can work but juz lack of communicating with ppl... tat's my biggest weakness of all. sigh guess i really need to work very very hard on it. although im quite a different person in internet world, i actually "chat" more than real life. dunno how to put it but im just like tat.

okay.. i juz realise that never underestimate drama's phrase.. lol cause wad the problem i having it's what they said. " when u lost something precious, then only u realize what's missing". uhm yea but it's been so long le i still having problem decide what's the choice i had to make. some of fellow friends say it's time to let go, some do say "use spana", well i not tat kind of ppl who use spana though just left out letting go, but if i hvnt reach my time limit i wont give up and yet im in pain here. 2 months lost contact with her le i still dont dare to check the mailbox well sometimes my friend check it for bills result still no letter. and the question "shud i send a letter?" comes in mind and yet i finished the letter but i dunno i shud send it or write another letter. i look so dumb and stupid that cant even decide on these decisions. i would say it nvr was easy to go through for me, cause i thinking too much!! sigh and i dunno when i can start to heal this heart that full with wounds or shud i let it crack till breakdown and start allover again? see life always full with choices hate to make decisions.

there's 1 more thing i hate the most. if u promise something with some1 then be sure u be there. and im dead serious about this, my roommate(msia friends) always like tat = = i mean the opposite way. it's this so called socialize? if i promised some1 anything i make sure i will make it happen. playing trust with other ppl it's not a good thing. now im not having class with my friends and their complain are even more unreasonable... since i working in production i chat or more to heard what's their situation and why they make thing like that. like if they schedule superior cuisine class most of it during weekend i bet my friends also complain about it and yet they now complain about having class whole day. i know how tired it can be, but by adapting wont b a problem perhaps? i also having hard time on production kitchen during the first week everyday very tired after work but the 2nd week in getting used to it already, i din see much problem there.

k ler i shud stop here.. too many complains liao >.< sigh corrupted mind!! =X anyway take care my friends and all the best =)

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Saturday, July 05, 2008

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

July 1st, Canada Day, big crowd everywhere, and our ex-roommate came back to Ottawa to visit us, right after noon we went out for a walk around the street, lots of ppl performance most of them are really good. there's a guy tat Mahrie (our ex-roommate) waited for sometime at the place to watch the performance, and it's really awesome =p that guy play drum, 3 different kind of drum and it's really nice rhythm the combination it's very very nice and im impressed. and the crowd that day it's spectacular. it's like an army of ant walking on the street haha most of the ppl wearing red or white shirt too. in Chinese direct translation.. can say it's "people mountain people sea" haha if u know wad i mean =p ah yes the fireworks how can i forget it, it's around 10pm at night and the place we watching fireworks it's so nice some of it look so close when they burst out. dunno how many thousand or up to million spent on the 15-20min fireworks @_@

during our lunch there's so many things in my head still running, specially memories with wei lee. it's not that i dun wanna let go but i dunno how to make myself dare to let go and move on. it's been so many years oredi, yes i do wish to be with her and dun wanna miss the 3rd or last chance or else i dunno i will do what to myself. who knows =p honestly i really dunno how to satisfy myself in a way i am satisfy with what im hving now friends, family as we know human will never had enough for anything so i really wish to know how i can make things that satisfy me this question will takes me forever to answer too. hmm.. for now i just hope things will change to a better view.

Wednesday, back to school volunteering again, things is going well not much thing happening except for the barbecue event from our school. it's not really that busy too just some stuff to prepare and ready to go. at the end of that day chef want me to speak or i can say communicate more with people. i dunno izzit really tat easy to catch that im a silent dude, or they said that i feel insecure, all i did is do too much thinking and din mind about speaking haha strange eh? in other words i like to put my words into actions more than speaking out, yea it's kinda weird. mayb thats the reason i miss my 2nd chance to tell her? these thing might connected if i think carefully but all i can do now is wait and wait for something i din know what will happen next. oh and i need to start to speak even more starting tomorrow, cause chef want me to teach the new students around production kitchen, i would say it will be tough for me, i prefer work than talk >< guys =")">< bye guys

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Wednesday, July 02, 2008