Monday, September 29, 2008

normal Monday... well it's an easy Monday actually ^^ got Adam, John around help us out and of course... their friends, David and Jennifer =). there're things i will never understand. 1st is... hmm... why my housemate always gives me hard time on Sunday? o.o specially midnight.. i need to wake up at 5am for work but their laughter loud till woke me up.. 1-2am in the morning... >_> why why Sunday? why not Saturday or Friday? and yet surprisingly they were all slept at 2am during saturday night when i go for Kiel's BBQ party then another friend's bday party... just strange really strange dun u think?
2nd most of the ppl say why i so serious? o.O tat's even more uhm.. haha dunno how to say.. well i din smile tat much onli mah >.< and when i concentrate on working... how to smile? haha same goes to when i playing basketball xD i do smile or laugh when ppl joke or w/e =) and yes i dun joke much in real life and hving communication prob too =x well tat's me. tried to change for some reason but i feel like staying like the old me for now.. somehow... there's some kind of pressure is on me. not from work or studies tat's for sure i really enjoy cooking ^^

sigh i tot F.E.A.R. harder mode can hold me slightly longer but no.. it get much quicker for me to get through somehow =x. there's a certain of the difficulty but yea... i played omos whole day and im half way done = = mayb it's just short?... hmm.. nvm still got the hardest mode i hvnt try =p. one day... one day i shall try it.. before i go back to msia of course =] in this 1 year time i really dunno how i gonna spent it. no mood for online games ( laggin yet not much friends) offline games... just 1-2 days then im finished the game.. oh man. i cant repeating play those offline game for so long would I ? O_O i guess if i did... in 1 month time my hair will be all gone LOL. keep tearing it coz of boredom xD this blog also have been silence for quite some time... =x
hmm... i shud stop here then... take care guys =)

Saturday, September 13, 2008

this week i occur some prob with proofing pastry/ bread item. i was told that im too aggressive by Chef Christopher around Tues/ Wed and the next day i encounter the same thing but not proofing but baking the product. well it start with the superior lesson, they need mini brioche that we need to bake for the chef's demo. and we shape it for the day before but it's not the equal shape then we had to do the 2nd batch half of the quantity from the 1st batch. after we shape it then it's proofing. i forgot bout the timing and yet the proofing size. they need to prove at least twice the size. prolly i do too much cuisine bout rushing things or can do things faster in a way. am i put too much patience on waiting wei lee and lost most of the patience on other things? is wad they called that balance? hmm... no idea bout it

the 2nd prob i have is baking... i need to make biscotti recipe. after that chef show me how to shape them and there's a small 1 we can test it. right away i set to bake the sample, but i read the recipe by mistake and get the wrong timing of baking. i should've notice that i did biscotti before during my training in sheraton imperial sigh...i knew something was wrong bout it but i just couldn't tell wad it is till i really realise it but it's too late. i pulled out the biscotti around 15min baking time and it suppose to bake for 35-40min at least and the sample biscotti is wasted. well that's not a cheap experience. same goes to my 1st accident after i get my driving license.

i've been kinda zha dao/ zha dou since i left my dish plate in the washing place, and guess wad? no1 will help wash even just 1 small thing... like it got some kind of deadly poison or curse if u touch other ppl dish... they really wan to count every inch of everything, i mean come on... help a little bit wont die would it? i would slice myself if they die for helping others. it's really pain in the ass = = and yet i do help out sometimes if there're dishes. it's just weird... really weird. or maybe i act like an outsider in the house? i just want to be alone in my room. din talk din mean i angry with someone or what so ever.

now i still miss wei lee alot... and yet i had this kind of tiny lil prob to deal with. hell? and my msn sentence make my mum worried all over me = =. it's just not the time to tell yet that i really cant tell hope they understand. sigh problems keep coming one after another.. although it's not big 1 but if i just leave it like tat it can be a big problem after =/ and i still have 1 year here. i really dunno i can make it through or not... it's oredi hard that i miss wei lee lot, then all these problem came. im like what the hell man. sigh and i dunno how to deal with this yet. nvm i'll figure it something to deal with it sooner or later. i'll stop here... thanks for reading my friends miss u all alot as always cant wait till i get back, and of coz take care u all!!

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Saturday, September 13, 2008

Monday, September 8, 2008

few weeks passed.. i guess i still cant let go of it... sigh, but thanks to Eugene i feel bit better somehow, sometimes ppl just need some advise when they're down... things like this i just cant stop thinking bout it... the more drama or movie i watch the more i will think of her.. =/ those love stories... always makes me remind of her. sorry to say i dun think i can find another her in my world... i just miss her so much that i cant stop thinking for a day... =(

yesterday night was my worst night ever in the apartment.. i had to wake up early for school and yet my friends all chatting laughing till late night.. i was so pissed that night, from 10pm i sleep till 1am they keep waking me up. luckily i wake up on time this morning.. there're many things i dun like bout my friends... they talk alot when watching movies... hardly kept their promise more like nvr =.= there're lots of unreasonable things happen i just dun wanna say it out here yet... mayb till the day i really lost control of myself. or mayb i will hold all this for another freaking year?

there're things i really dun understand... i dun speak that much din really mean i dun speak at all. i just need some time of my own. my friend likes to try find something to talk to me = = i just felt very zzz why wanna do so? if i want to talk i will talk. most of the time here im emo*ing and they still wanna "try"to talk to me. i mean like i really need some time alone. i guess i shud stop here by now... take care guys... miss u all as usual..! best friends forever!!

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Monday, September 08, 2008

Monday, September 1, 2008

I just saw the 2nd picture of them... well i finally can see her happiness showed in her smile. im glad to see and yet i felt like a knife stabbing my heart. i guess it's good to put an end for now... finally? hmm... i wasn't sure bout myself yet too... i also dunno why when comes to relationship things i always blindfolded myself. it just happened everytime. or am i asking the right question to get the right answers? hmm... really have lots of doubt. i tried on go for easy going life but when comes to relationship.. just gives me a big headache or maybe lots of things i need to know and not just by look and my problem is always solve things by looking it less question sigh...

i guess the depressing will keep it on for weeks. and it's finally sept... my work-study program gonna start soon as i going to sign the contract 2moro... 6months to go to superior.. cant wait till then. but yet i still got lots thing to learn from the Chefs, every chefs in Le Cordon Bleu have my deepest respect to them. their work always amazed me. come to think of this i wish the time dun pass too fast as i still want to learn from them but think of wanna go back msia i just cant wait till this 1 year pass like a blink of eye... sigh. decisions decisions always go hard on me. if life is like a movie, drama, cartoon or even just a simple song that would be great for me. since all those are all planned.

there's lots of things i dunno how to put an end... and i keep on going and going, even myself think im annoying sometimes too. dunno how to put this in example but i just did those all the time.. sigh. i guess i had to stop here... take care my friends.. ciaossu

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Monday, September 01, 2008