Monday, August 25, 2008

i understand that i shouldn't bring my emotions to work but i just cant help it, the more i dun want to bring it the more i'll think of it. i guess i still cant make to a professional yet as dun bring other things like emotions to work. although it's just a simple few sentences, it keep running through my head, that's the hardcore. yes there's still hope for me a tiny little string of hope. i will hold on to it still just that i wont do anything till the date i set for myself as the finals, but of course thanks for the little hope that she gave me.

what fate or love at first sight... i dun really wanna think bout it already or even believe it. my estimation for relationship things is the worst part ever... none of it get me right before. so many things i wish to happen it just turn out the other way. maybe im not that kind of guy who knows how to deal with these things. most of the ppl do... well but i dont. yet many ppl comment bout me good things, sigh i know i am what i am it just that i dunno how to express myself most of the time to someone. express myself or even just find a simple topic is the hardest thing i find in a conversation.

i dunno how long this will take me to go through though, maybe a month or 2 or maybe a year? time is really unknown to me for sure it will takes me a while mayb more than a while. i know crying cant solve anything or do anything with it but sometimes just cant hold on to my eyes get wet a little right? unless im a robot. at the mean time i try to deal with the emotions the most priority things i need to aim for. i guess i have too many sentimental song to make my eyes wet from time to time. i wonder it's there any songs that can help me hold up my tears? joking.. maybe hearing those sentimental songs might help me get stronger? who knows.. anyway i shud stop here.. thanks for reading and take care my friends...