Wednesday, July 2, 2008

July 1st, Canada Day, big crowd everywhere, and our ex-roommate came back to Ottawa to visit us, right after noon we went out for a walk around the street, lots of ppl performance most of them are really good. there's a guy tat Mahrie (our ex-roommate) waited for sometime at the place to watch the performance, and it's really awesome =p that guy play drum, 3 different kind of drum and it's really nice rhythm the combination it's very very nice and im impressed. and the crowd that day it's spectacular. it's like an army of ant walking on the street haha most of the ppl wearing red or white shirt too. in Chinese direct translation.. can say it's "people mountain people sea" haha if u know wad i mean =p ah yes the fireworks how can i forget it, it's around 10pm at night and the place we watching fireworks it's so nice some of it look so close when they burst out. dunno how many thousand or up to million spent on the 15-20min fireworks @_@

during our lunch there's so many things in my head still running, specially memories with wei lee. it's not that i dun wanna let go but i dunno how to make myself dare to let go and move on. it's been so many years oredi, yes i do wish to be with her and dun wanna miss the 3rd or last chance or else i dunno i will do what to myself. who knows =p honestly i really dunno how to satisfy myself in a way i am satisfy with what im hving now friends, family as we know human will never had enough for anything so i really wish to know how i can make things that satisfy me this question will takes me forever to answer too. hmm.. for now i just hope things will change to a better view.

Wednesday, back to school volunteering again, things is going well not much thing happening except for the barbecue event from our school. it's not really that busy too just some stuff to prepare and ready to go. at the end of that day chef want me to speak or i can say communicate more with people. i dunno izzit really tat easy to catch that im a silent dude, or they said that i feel insecure, all i did is do too much thinking and din mind about speaking haha strange eh? in other words i like to put my words into actions more than speaking out, yea it's kinda weird. mayb thats the reason i miss my 2nd chance to tell her? these thing might connected if i think carefully but all i can do now is wait and wait for something i din know what will happen next. oh and i need to start to speak even more starting tomorrow, cause chef want me to teach the new students around production kitchen, i would say it will be tough for me, i prefer work than talk >< guys =")">< bye guys