Saturday, July 5, 2008

well that guiding new students day it's kinda bad lucky i got Anya to help me out =x i really suck at communication lol.. Chef Christopher n my friends know i can work but juz lack of communicating with ppl... tat's my biggest weakness of all. sigh guess i really need to work very very hard on it. although im quite a different person in internet world, i actually "chat" more than real life. dunno how to put it but im just like tat.

okay.. i juz realise that never underestimate drama's phrase.. lol cause wad the problem i having it's what they said. " when u lost something precious, then only u realize what's missing". uhm yea but it's been so long le i still having problem decide what's the choice i had to make. some of fellow friends say it's time to let go, some do say "use spana", well i not tat kind of ppl who use spana though just left out letting go, but if i hvnt reach my time limit i wont give up and yet im in pain here. 2 months lost contact with her le i still dont dare to check the mailbox well sometimes my friend check it for bills result still no letter. and the question "shud i send a letter?" comes in mind and yet i finished the letter but i dunno i shud send it or write another letter. i look so dumb and stupid that cant even decide on these decisions. i would say it nvr was easy to go through for me, cause i thinking too much!! sigh and i dunno when i can start to heal this heart that full with wounds or shud i let it crack till breakdown and start allover again? see life always full with choices hate to make decisions.

there's 1 more thing i hate the most. if u promise something with some1 then be sure u be there. and im dead serious about this, my roommate(msia friends) always like tat = = i mean the opposite way. it's this so called socialize? if i promised some1 anything i make sure i will make it happen. playing trust with other ppl it's not a good thing. now im not having class with my friends and their complain are even more unreasonable... since i working in production i chat or more to heard what's their situation and why they make thing like that. like if they schedule superior cuisine class most of it during weekend i bet my friends also complain about it and yet they now complain about having class whole day. i know how tired it can be, but by adapting wont b a problem perhaps? i also having hard time on production kitchen during the first week everyday very tired after work but the 2nd week in getting used to it already, i din see much problem there.

k ler i shud stop here.. too many complains liao >.< sigh corrupted mind!! =X anyway take care my friends and all the best =)