Form2's life

days gone by

2009-01-17T12:17:00.000-08:00

i just realize that if a person waited too long himself/herself also will get tired... like myself. i try look back at all the points i hv miss or think it all over again... the truth is always been sitting in front of me. as for myself now.. i just wanna work after i grad... where about i wasn't sure yet it's either Singapore or other country than my own country :) tat's my very very very last decision... not going to change anymore for sure.

something had come to end but hey life has to go on... :) so i continue my old life... be with my old buddy... computer :P as i always do.. haha hope it din get mad i do such a thing to it LOL. am i getting nuts or wad? haha

oh i need to welcome my very good friend KARYEE!! linked me :P big big welcome karyee :D:D

the day i realise who or what are real friends

2008-11-01T05:44:00.000-07:00

firstly i wanna wish everyone happy halloween :) and everyone did enjoyed themselves that night, i guess im the onli 1 who left out but what the heck.. who cares. anyway i really dunno what some ppl really thinking... their tot just so weird that i cant put any logic sense to it. i just dun get it why wanna say sth that they oredi decided not to do and tell me another thing =.= pretty fucked up right?

these probs is piling up and it's still unsolved... shud i just leave it there? or shud i do anything bout it? it's 6 more months away till i get away from here. anyway autumn just passed... it's just like a blink of eye... very beautiful scene but just for very short moment onli... and yes lil sad to see the leaves dropping down from the trees. i really wish to share those pic to u guys... but camera hving prob =.= dammit so many time it din go wrong when i wanna take the beautiful scene then the prob came. the 2nd semester working in production almost finish... and Kiel is finishing his program. =] good for him. and 3 more months to go for myself. hope working wif Hisako will be a pleasure and coorperating well :) or maybe it's all too early to say those? hmm... in other words we will be happy working togather? haha who knows.. not much to say but i had to stop now... take care guys n hope to see u all very soon :)

just another day

2008-09-29T15:13:00.000-07:00

normal Monday... well it's an easy Monday actually ^^ got Adam, John around help us out and of course... their friends, David and Jennifer =). there're things i will never understand. 1st is... hmm... why my housemate always gives me hard time on Sunday? o.o specially midnight.. i need to wake up at 5am for work but their laughter loud till woke me up.. 1-2am in the morning... >_> why why Sunday? why not Saturday or Friday? and yet surprisingly they were all slept at 2am during saturday night when i go for Kiel's BBQ party then another friend's bday party... just strange really strange dun u think?
2nd most of the ppl say why i so serious? o.O tat's even more uhm.. haha dunno how to say.. well i din smile tat much onli mah >.< and when i concentrate on working... how to smile? haha same goes to when i playing basketball xD i do smile or laugh when ppl joke or w/e =) and yes i dun joke much in real life and hving communication prob too =x well tat's me. tried to change for some reason but i feel like staying like the old me for now.. somehow... there's some kind of pressure is on me. not from work or studies tat's for sure i really enjoy cooking ^^

sigh i tot F.E.A.R. harder mode can hold me slightly longer but no.. it get much quicker for me to get through somehow =x. there's a certain of the difficulty but yea... i played omos whole day and im half way done = = mayb it's just short?... hmm.. nvm still got the hardest mode i hvnt try =p. one day... one day i shall try it.. before i go back to msia of course =] in this 1 year time i really dunno how i gonna spent it. no mood for online games ( laggin yet not much friends) offline games... just 1-2 days then im finished the game.. oh man. i cant repeating play those offline game for so long would I ? O_O i guess if i did... in 1 month time my hair will be all gone LOL. keep tearing it coz of boredom xD this blog also have been silence for quite some time... =x
hmm... i shud stop here then... take care guys =)

what is balance?

2008-09-13T11:41:00.001-07:00

this week i occur some prob with proofing pastry/ bread item. i was told that im too aggressive by Chef Christopher around Tues/ Wed and the next day i encounter the same thing but not proofing but baking the product. well it start with the superior lesson, they need mini brioche that we need to bake for the chef's demo. and we shape it for the day before but it's not the equal shape then we had to do the 2nd batch half of the quantity from the 1st batch. after we shape it then it's proofing. i forgot bout the timing and yet the proofing size. they need to prove at least twice the size. prolly i do too much cuisine bout rushing things or can do things faster in a way. am i put too much patience on waiting wei lee and lost most of the patience on other things? is wad they called that balance? hmm... no idea bout it

the 2nd prob i have is baking... i need to make biscotti recipe. after that chef show me how to shape them and there's a small 1 we can test it. right away i set to bake the sample, but i read the recipe by mistake and get the wrong timing of baking. i should've notice that i did biscotti before during my training in sheraton imperial sigh...i knew something was wrong bout it but i just couldn't tell wad it is till i really realise it but it's too late. i pulled out the biscotti around 15min baking time and it suppose to bake for 35-40min at least and the sample biscotti is wasted. well that's not a cheap experience. same goes to my 1st accident after i get my driving license.

i've been kinda zha dao/ zha dou since i left my dish plate in the washing place, and guess wad? no1 will help wash even just 1 small thing... like it got some kind of deadly poison or curse if u touch other ppl dish... they really wan to count every inch of everything, i mean come on... help a little bit wont die would it? i would slice myself if they die for helping others. it's really pain in the ass = = and yet i do help out sometimes if there're dishes. it's just weird... really weird. or maybe i act like an outsider in the house? i just want to be alone in my room. din talk din mean i angry with someone or what so ever.

now i still miss wei lee alot... and yet i had this kind of tiny lil prob to deal with. hell? and my msn sentence make my mum worried all over me = =. it's just not the time to tell yet that i really cant tell hope they understand. sigh problems keep coming one after another.. although it's not big 1 but if i just leave it like tat it can be a big problem after =/ and i still have 1 year here. i really dunno i can make it through or not... it's oredi hard that i miss wei lee lot, then all these problem came. im like what the hell man. sigh and i dunno how to deal with this yet. nvm i'll figure it something to deal with it sooner or later. i'll stop here... thanks for reading my friends miss u all alot as always cant wait till i get back, and of coz take care u all!!

finally

2008-09-08T15:30:00.000-07:00

few weeks passed.. i guess i still cant let go of it... sigh, but thanks to Eugene i feel bit better somehow, sometimes ppl just need some advise when they're down... things like this i just cant stop thinking bout it... the more drama or movie i watch the more i will think of her.. =/ those love stories... always makes me remind of her. sorry to say i dun think i can find another her in my world... i just miss her so much that i cant stop thinking for a day... =(

yesterday night was my worst night ever in the apartment.. i had to wake up early for school and yet my friends all chatting laughing till late night.. i was so pissed that night, from 10pm i sleep till 1am they keep waking me up. luckily i wake up on time this morning.. there're many things i dun like bout my friends... they talk alot when watching movies... hardly kept their promise more like nvr =.= there're lots of unreasonable things happen i just dun wanna say it out here yet... mayb till the day i really lost control of myself. or mayb i will hold all this for another freaking year?

there're things i really dun understand... i dun speak that much din really mean i dun speak at all. i just need some time of my own. my friend likes to try find something to talk to me = = i just felt very zzz why wanna do so? if i want to talk i will talk. most of the time here im emo*ing and they still wanna "try"to talk to me. i mean like i really need some time alone. i guess i shud stop here by now... take care guys... miss u all as usual..! best friends forever!!

why i always blindfolded myself?

2008-09-01T16:21:00.000-07:00

I just saw the 2nd picture of them... well i finally can see her happiness showed in her smile. im glad to see and yet i felt like a knife stabbing my heart. i guess it's good to put an end for now... finally? hmm... i wasn't sure bout myself yet too... i also dunno why when comes to relationship things i always blindfolded myself. it just happened everytime. or am i asking the right question to get the right answers? hmm... really have lots of doubt. i tried on go for easy going life but when comes to relationship.. just gives me a big headache or maybe lots of things i need to know and not just by look and my problem is always solve things by looking it less question sigh...

i guess the depressing will keep it on for weeks. and it's finally sept... my work-study program gonna start soon as i going to sign the contract 2moro... 6months to go to superior.. cant wait till then. but yet i still got lots thing to learn from the Chefs, every chefs in Le Cordon Bleu have my deepest respect to them. their work always amazed me. come to think of this i wish the time dun pass too fast as i still want to learn from them but think of wanna go back msia i just cant wait till this 1 year pass like a blink of eye... sigh. decisions decisions always go hard on me. if life is like a movie, drama, cartoon or even just a simple song that would be great for me. since all those are all planned.

there's lots of things i dunno how to put an end... and i keep on going and going, even myself think im annoying sometimes too. dunno how to put this in example but i just did those all the time.. sigh. i guess i had to stop here... take care my friends.. ciaossu

the emo day

2008-08-25T15:59:00.000-07:00

i understand that i shouldn't bring my emotions to work but i just cant help it, the more i dun want to bring it the more i'll think of it. i guess i still cant make to a professional yet as dun bring other things like emotions to work. although it's just a simple few sentences, it keep running through my head, that's the hardcore. yes there's still hope for me a tiny little string of hope. i will hold on to it still just that i wont do anything till the date i set for myself as the finals, but of course thanks for the little hope that she gave me.

what fate or love at first sight... i dun really wanna think bout it already or even believe it. my estimation for relationship things is the worst part ever... none of it get me right before. so many things i wish to happen it just turn out the other way. maybe im not that kind of guy who knows how to deal with these things. most of the ppl do... well but i dont. yet many ppl comment bout me good things, sigh i know i am what i am it just that i dunno how to express myself most of the time to someone. express myself or even just find a simple topic is the hardest thing i find in a conversation.

i dunno how long this will take me to go through though, maybe a month or 2 or maybe a year? time is really unknown to me for sure it will takes me a while mayb more than a while. i know crying cant solve anything or do anything with it but sometimes just cant hold on to my eyes get wet a little right? unless im a robot. at the mean time i try to deal with the emotions the most priority things i need to aim for. i guess i have too many sentimental song to make my eyes wet from time to time. i wonder it's there any songs that can help me hold up my tears? joking.. maybe hearing those sentimental songs might help me get stronger? who knows.. anyway i shud stop here.. thanks for reading and take care my friends...

somethings shud be stop for the time being

2008-08-23T03:06:00.000-07:00

Saturday early morning, around 5am.. i called Wei Lee and finally i get all my courage to ask some questions which keep in my mind for quite some time. yes the answer it's sure is painful but it still better than longer pain than short 1 right? =) and yes dun worry bout me im totally fine with it of coz im so ready for the bad news since the beginning of the week haha somehow i juz felt something not right, and something that leads me to know this, something that science cant explain bout it if i may say.anyway i really had a great chat with her truly =).and yet we're still very gd friends ^^here i truly says thank you to Wei Lee for helping me made this decision with the deepest of my heart =D now i guess i can leave those thing behind for now... till i get back msia and see how's things go ;). so yea the whole night i din the to sleep and still awake like normal days... dunno how i will do when afternoon or evening haha.

during the morning weekly tavern chat... i started to not feeling that well, but im ok after a short while nap.. hehe and things seems to be going smoothly after although not everything is as i planned but yea what the hell haha i really wish i had Grissom's mind (csi Las Vegas the leader) every csi leader in those 3 series always amazed me =p coz sometimes i also stuck coz i thinking in the box and not out of the box. (hope u guys know wad i trying to say).

in the morning i go for a walk in the shopping center, it does gives me some memory bout the last time i went out with her.. from wad i think, i need to face it myself although it's kinda heartache sometimes. that's the hardest thing i need to go through for now. i think that's bout it for this blog.. thanks for reading and take care my friends.. always miss u guys ;)

days go by slowly

2008-08-22T15:35:00.000-07:00

there we go 2 weeks with Chef Armando's guide in production kitchen had ended today. On Thurs production kitchen have their own little "garlic festival" well not really the festival that we went last time haha... i had to process so much garlic that the wood part had started to have mold more than 20heads of garlic need to be process. well tat din really take much time... Ania and Kiel help out too =). and Friday we start to prepare some of the exam box for the students. i can say it's not much things to do, coz we dun hv any more demo or practical trays to do as the final class had just finished today we're all good to go. =D

as this 2 weeks passed, wei lee's exam shuda over. i dunno what my mind thinking... just all of a sudden i lost most of the feelings or maybe confident which is really weird. can it be the background thing still in my mind? hmm... hope things in my mind can be answered today with the call... and of coz hope for the call can be reach, wish me luck!!

Friday after work, i head back home. and watch csi series.. who knows i been awake by the vibrate of the bass again... i guess im too near with the wall, but nvm that... i on my music try to ignore it and lying on bed. the worst part came... my friends dunno they argue or doing some kind of chatting =.= triple ways sound comes into my mind.. man tat sure is 1 hell of a evening. im totally pissed and go for a walk in the park.. hearing the wind and river is much much more better than the sound polution =.= really like hell. i would be very very happy if they're having class today. after work i really need to have some time to relax and those interups juz come one after another, you can imagine how hard i fought through well not physical... juz mentally haha. still have around 5-6 hours till i call her... sigh dunno i can wait till that time or not.. oh well, everything is worth for a try =) it's friday afterall =p okay i guess i shud stop here... lastly but not least i wish all my friends who going to have exams next week good luck =)

The Worst Monday Ever...

2008-08-19T16:28:00.000-07:00

When I walking to my school... a nice full moon hanging on the sky still right in front of my apartment entrance I thought it’s gonna be a normal Monday. Well it start off like usual, I prepare fruit plate for the staff in the morning. Nothing special on that... but after that I help out Kiel to bring some item from the freezer, I dunno why I would forgot about the stairs near the freezer and I was walking backwards as I carrying the item with Kiel, the fall wasn’t that bad I would say but my elbow getting little pain after a while till I realise I had a small scratch there maybe I knocked it on the floor when I fell.

After that I look on the list that what we need to be done for the day, and I’m always in charge of the stock making and rotate the stock, and I remembered there’s some veal bones came on Friday thawing in the fridge, and of course I start my veal stock right away and rotate some stock. When I move into the fridge few box of cream fell on the floor... Worst come to worst 1 of the cream spilled quite a mess there, nvm that, din take much time to clear and I continue with my work. I started the stock with roasting the bones till brown. I dunno why I totally forgot about it; usually I remember to check once in a while so the bones won’t get too dark or burned taste. Today I just lost myself few bones I need to throw away to preventing the burned taste which some chef complained about last time which I over roast the bones, that goes for another mistake I made today. I was told to do the duck confit (a duck leg cook in very low temperature with lots of duck fat) and I need to check the temperature once in a while too I just dunno why I could concentrate today, I did check for a certain of time... when I start to do other things I’m totally forgot about it too... luckily it was on very low fire although the fat was boiling a bit it almost to the finish product. Nevertheless I made lots of mistake today, kind of frustrated and tired of what I did those simple mistake. The worst thing is I worked till I forgot about the lunch time that Hisako who usually help us out in production and I need to go with her cause she still a student which can’t have meals on the staff place unless she’s in production helping or something like that, I only realise it’s over 1pm when she told me that she’s starving. Feel so sorry about it.

I really dunno why, I just not in a good mood today. Things din went well, these and that very frustrating. Back at home, I thought of finishing my movie in crunchyroll.com but there’s no connection on my new laptop meanwhile the old 1 which I on 24/7 for torrents download still having connection. I dunno what’s going on, it just a very bad day for me. Then I just go for a nap with my music on, and there’s some dude upstairs on the music... not loud but the bass he turn is really high, I can hear the bass bumping that awake me. Sigh things just go on and on, really wish today can end fast. Look at the clock now it’s only 7pm, still got few hours more till I get to bed. Well just hope connection will be back to normal by tomorrow. Take care guys..

tough slow week

2008-08-16T14:08:00.000-07:00

personally i would think the time is getting bit slower than the usual i passed... it still fast enough for a day.. a week hmm.. would say so, coz after a day of work i sit down watch shows... and start thinking lots of stuff. so yea.. this week or 2 weeks should be my toughest week of the year... or so far i've been through.. yet it's not about the things here.. juz what's in my mind running around think about all those thing which i din really need to think that much. things like should i be more honest during the chat with her?.. or should i wait till the right time comes? i would probably feel bad if i act now.. but the feelings.. it's really kinda killing me specially the last called the background chat (not with me of course) still in my mind and things tat is oredi history.. i shudn't bring all this up into my mind. but i juz couldn't help it.

yes this week we're working without Chef Christopher, Chef Armando is taking care of us... not much problem happening.. all went smoothly. till Wednesday, Kiel come to school as usual.. but he's terribly sick and surprisingly no student who scheduled on the timetable come neither to the volunteer student. so it's me and Ania, Jacqueline working in the kitchen while Chef Armando having class in the afternoon but yet Chef Armando help us out a bit on the staff meal, meanwhile i take charge of the chef's demo and of coz the practical class. miraclely we finish as usual time.. probably i think not much extra work we need to done tat day.. pretty glad that day is over. oh and of course thanks to Kiel leave the duty list for us to view too... it really helped me some.

Saturday, Chef Armando asked me to help him on the short courses going on each 2 weeks.. i really glad to help Chef Armando he's a great chef and mentor, from him i learn lots of ways to do plating too so yea it helped alot for me. somehow by back it's abit "naughty" that afternoon it get a lil uncomfortable or the small ache is going on the place that i injurt my back last time or long time ago (back in msia) so yea when i get back, i did something for it.. feeling better now =) im glad that Hisako, friend that came to help Chef Armando for the practical class i dun think i can hang on till evening today.

last but not least, i still rmb those things i chatted with Wei Lee, things are like going roundabout in my head.. it just keep repeating although it's neither very good or bad. and everytime i saw her picture i really miss her smile, her graceful smile that gives me a very sweet memory. i really wish to see that at least once more when i go back... cause i dun really see that in her display picture in friendster (not too much info about it, sorry) so yea i think u guys might get the idea.. that's how i felt it. day and night.. and back to the movie of back to the future.. if i have a time-machine it would be great haha (daydreaming). yet BoA - Love Letter that song ways touched my heart so deeply i would have cried thinking of Wei Lee... but yet it's a really nice song definately will recomment to every1 =) okay i think i should stop here.. try not to write too long later my friends complain having hard time to read.. haha joking =x cya guys and take care and of course thanks for reading =)

unstable emotion again

2008-08-10T18:30:00.001-07:00

saturday night i called her.. im really really happy to hear from her.. the happiness that i dont even know how to describe. but im just unhappy about the background chat at the saturday night.. then she told me she's bz at the moment call her later on.. so yea the background thingy keep bothering me which i also duno why >_> there's some words then encourage me back somehow i felt it. (not bout the background chat of coz) 1st time i cant remember what i chat with her.. i think the background chat plus i juz woke up at 4am for the call makes me cant rmb much >.<>_< cant wait till i get back to msia meet her T.T!! well here i wish her all the best to her exam... starting on this monday till next week.. best regards from JH =)

2moro starting a week in production without chef Christopher.. but still got chef Armando take over for the time being =) hope things go well... and i get to do cheese plate this week for the American chef come for training it's a whole new thing for me.. wish to see how it present it =D

oh yea yesterday me and my friends went to Perth Garlic Festival. Kiel, Shaikha, Fei, Rahim and me in a group... Kiel do the demostration for the folks while we prepare more food in the kitchen at the back... pretty fun actually. and of coz Victor, Chloe and Nicholas in another group, and they went for the demostration 1st, they were really good in explaining things and do the demostration =) coz i really suck at it haha i prefer do work in the kitchen... juz cook like Harold in Top Chef season 1 said =p he really impressed me alot. hope 1 day i can be as good as he is >.<

anyway my friends i think i shud stop here... take care ya..!! miss u all alot =) mayb can start countdown 1 year from now... =x anyway all the best!!!

days going slowly

2008-08-06T17:55:00.000-07:00

sigh... normal day in school time passed real quick which is good.. but back home.. time start to slow down.. or time moving really slowly more like slow motion >_> and yes specially night time.. lol i really dunno wad i can do to kill time at night. after work mayb i can play some online game a while and now my friends dun hv much class coz of exam coming soon =( so yea.. basically i dun think i can gaming with shared internet sad eh?... as time goes by.. it's already thursday tomorrow.. hmm.. 1 more day to friday ^^ (well i guess u guys know what im happy for =p) hope everything will go well on that God please be with me for once...!! =x lol (i dun think they will come.. as in i dun believe in It =x)

As Chef Christopher told me.. the American chefs is coming for training next week plus Chef Christopher is on vacation. well let's just hope nth disaster will happen.. and of course Chef Armando will take over for the week haha how can we survive without a chef take over the duty =x couldn't bare to imagine.. xD anyway Chef Armando it's a very nice chef too and his carving is.. SUPERIOR!!! no matter fruits or ice carving.. it will like real things after he carved very very impressed =p. i would say almost every chefs here impressed me haha feel so great to be here, learning with them will be the best part too! they loved to share their experience.. and knowledge.. that's the best part of all for me =D

oh yea... this week the staff meal cook having a week vacation.. so yea we have a little bit more work then usual... well Ania took over the position.. just that from what i thought and see her organization not really good. she always need some volunteer students to help her out. and from my opinion when she stressed out which i dunno why, the way she called or maybe order ppl to do things might be a little rude =x (just my own opinion) oh well she'll finish her work-study program very soon =x haha din really mind bout it =p.

i guess i should stop here for now.. hehe dunno wad to write d.. ciaossu!! take care yah my friends!! miss u all so much...!!! hope 1 year time will passed quickly.. =(

late post blog...

2008-08-04T18:20:00.001-07:00

sorry bout that guys.. i wish to post this blog long time ago but keep forgetting it =x. anyway last week Wei Lee replied my msn msg which i left it a while ago.. so yea i got her number from there too ^^ so glad till my usual evening nap take, i juz cant get myself sleep or rest.. my mind it's just stop thinking stuff... oh man.. so yea i planned to call her that Saturday but who knows... she had some sort of lecturer from other place came for a visit.. and she had to go for the class that day.. sigh.. hopefully i get to talk to her this week then >.< *tied crossed fingers like Benet said* XD

oh yea few days ago.. in the morning as im on my way to school.. there's few crow like trying to tell me something... then i din know they really do O.O as i reach school and just rmb i left my uniform at home! so yea well i need to go back and get it.. not tat far luckily =)

and again... the Friday MORE crows... then i start to think.. hmmm did i missing something at home?.. well nop and i reach school do my job blah blah blah.. THEN the problem came.. Kiel checking the demos n practical for class... one of it missing a recipe for demo and practical.. and it's on that afternoon! well we did have some rush in the morning.. haha sort of lucky we got a volunteer student, Philip help us out ^^ and the way went well after that =p peace

and i cant stop thinking about Wei Lee even more after she msg me >.< and i think i juz get worst than usual o.o and of coz by the way thanks for the support guys ^^ really really appreciate it!! take care and all the best to you all!!

good news or bad news?

2008-07-21T18:38:00.001-07:00

normal day.. normal Monday... abnormal morning haha.. me and Kiel(my classmate n colleague) forgot to take pastry item on Friday, so it's a little mess this morning. i doing my same thing, fruit tray while Ania (another colleague) take care of the pastry item (usually). i dunno what happened to Ania but she seems like not feeling well, anyway she left early.. oh well as we continue working.. Eddie, George, Amin, Hisako help us out some of them on schedule in production kitchen some volunteering. and we finish the work really fast and i really mean it hahaha =x thanks for their help!! very appreciate it.. =)

the most funny thing today it's when Hanosh, my friend also hahaha (paiseh lots of explaination in this blog =x) he says tat.. OMG JING SPOKEN!! haha for u guys info.. i really hardly speak, typing more =x i think most of the ppl knows that who used facebook or msn contact with me =X so yea haha i would say it's just another fun day =) my 1st month out of 9 had passed just like tat... without i realizing it. as i said few blogs ago.. time always flies.. cant even hold then for another second or minute.. sigh.. i really wish to have a time machine.. =x lol things will b very different by then =x

i should stop here... take care my friends... and thanks for reading... ^_^

longest day ever

2008-07-18T14:01:00.000-07:00

Tuesday... i went to school as usual at 6am, and chef Christopher asked me to stay till Intermediate butchery workshop over around like 10pm or so. then.. mayb i standing too much and carry some heavy stuff so i think i hurt my back that night, cant say tat.s lots of work that night just vacuum pack those lamb part. but that night i just felt my legs very tired.. and i reach home almost like 10.30-11pm that night.

so the next day i go to school at 8am as chef told, then i work like normal days.. but sth juz dont feel right on my back. it getting more pain then i tell chef christopher and i took half day and the next day off. the sad thing i had on wednesday is.. i thought i can play holic whole day but i hving trouble connect to server for whole day -_-" these things will never change... zz most of the thing i wanna do in my mind mostly wont happen -.- so fucked up =x (excuse with the language) lol

anyway... i need u guys' advise.. shud i send the letter? i planning to write a new 1 =/. i have more than 2 months din contact with her.. no news from sook wan either or i would say i havent see sook wan online after that.. @_@. i've been thinking more and more things too =(

well back to my school.. working with the chefs i would say it's rather fun than pressuring.. they have jokes that hardly stop in the kitchen, teasing every1. and i still the silent me as usual haha... chef Christopher and chef Armando always say i very silent =X well i havent change myself for so long oredi i dun think i can change it in a short time ><. i do try to speak more with some1 though. i tried very hard but things without reply will gives me a bad feeling about it. or i can say it will makes me think lots of negative things =x

so my dear friends.. hope to see ur advise soon!! thanks yah!! miss u all so much... *countdown on going back msia in a year +* take care y'all~~!!

what a day..

2008-07-08T19:14:00.000-07:00

Tues.. i go to production kitchen as normal days, but since the Road Grill show it's shooting in our school area and most of the student are missing in action at the show, chef force me to go there too sigh.. dun really like to be in tv.. lol well i did spent some time there... i guess i'll be on the show one of the episode..

at night i read a forward email sent from my cousin.. about horoscope, it says that my horoscope is.. very soft hearted, very sensitive, very curious, daydreaming, think lots nonsense. hmm.. i guess everything it's right for me LOL im sensitive in a way. plz try not to think side ways XD. daydreaming? of coz! hoping things tat wont come true.. isn't that called daydreaming? lol. curious.. hmm i would say yes, if things din say clearly i will ask till i get it right (sometimes only) =p. think lots of nonsense also true, I've been thinking lots of nonsense for few months oredi or i can say years? lol for the 1st time all things correct hahaha impressive =p

well nothing much happened today but juz another tiring day.. that's all =) and of coz take care my friends hope to see u guys soon. need to countdown 1 year from now =p ciaossu!!

are ppl lost something only realise?

2008-07-05T11:11:00.000-07:00

well that guiding new students day it's kinda bad lucky i got Anya to help me out =x i really suck at communication lol.. Chef Christopher n my friends know i can work but juz lack of communicating with ppl... tat's my biggest weakness of all. sigh guess i really need to work very very hard on it. although im quite a different person in internet world, i actually "chat" more than real life. dunno how to put it but im just like tat.

okay.. i juz realise that never underestimate drama's phrase.. lol cause wad the problem i having it's what they said. " when u lost something precious, then only u realize what's missing". uhm yea but it's been so long le i still having problem decide what's the choice i had to make. some of fellow friends say it's time to let go, some do say "use spana", well i not tat kind of ppl who use spana though just left out letting go, but if i hvnt reach my time limit i wont give up and yet im in pain here. 2 months lost contact with her le i still dont dare to check the mailbox well sometimes my friend check it for bills result still no letter. and the question "shud i send a letter?" comes in mind and yet i finished the letter but i dunno i shud send it or write another letter. i look so dumb and stupid that cant even decide on these decisions. i would say it nvr was easy to go through for me, cause i thinking too much!! sigh and i dunno when i can start to heal this heart that full with wounds or shud i let it crack till breakdown and start allover again? see life always full with choices hate to make decisions.

there's 1 more thing i hate the most. if u promise something with some1 then be sure u be there. and im dead serious about this, my roommate(msia friends) always like tat = = i mean the opposite way. it's this so called socialize? if i promised some1 anything i make sure i will make it happen. playing trust with other ppl it's not a good thing. now im not having class with my friends and their complain are even more unreasonable... since i working in production i chat or more to heard what's their situation and why they make thing like that. like if they schedule superior cuisine class most of it during weekend i bet my friends also complain about it and yet they now complain about having class whole day. i know how tired it can be, but by adapting wont b a problem perhaps? i also having hard time on production kitchen during the first week everyday very tired after work but the 2nd week in getting used to it already, i din see much problem there.

k ler i shud stop here.. too many complains liao >.< sigh corrupted mind!! =X anyway take care my friends and all the best =)

somehow i still in pain

2008-07-02T19:15:00.001-07:00

July 1st, Canada Day, big crowd everywhere, and our ex-roommate came back to Ottawa to visit us, right after noon we went out for a walk around the street, lots of ppl performance most of them are really good. there's a guy tat Mahrie (our ex-roommate) waited for sometime at the place to watch the performance, and it's really awesome =p that guy play drum, 3 different kind of drum and it's really nice rhythm the combination it's very very nice and im impressed. and the crowd that day it's spectacular. it's like an army of ant walking on the street haha most of the ppl wearing red or white shirt too. in Chinese direct translation.. can say it's "people mountain people sea" haha if u know wad i mean =p ah yes the fireworks how can i forget it, it's around 10pm at night and the place we watching fireworks it's so nice some of it look so close when they burst out. dunno how many thousand or up to million spent on the 15-20min fireworks @_@

during our lunch there's so many things in my head still running, specially memories with wei lee. it's not that i dun wanna let go but i dunno how to make myself dare to let go and move on. it's been so many years oredi, yes i do wish to be with her and dun wanna miss the 3rd or last chance or else i dunno i will do what to myself. who knows =p honestly i really dunno how to satisfy myself in a way i am satisfy with what im hving now friends, family as we know human will never had enough for anything so i really wish to know how i can make things that satisfy me this question will takes me forever to answer too. hmm.. for now i just hope things will change to a better view.

Wednesday, back to school volunteering again, things is going well not much thing happening except for the barbecue event from our school. it's not really that busy too just some stuff to prepare and ready to go. at the end of that day chef want me to speak or i can say communicate more with people. i dunno izzit really tat easy to catch that im a silent dude, or they said that i feel insecure, all i did is do too much thinking and din mind about speaking haha strange eh? in other words i like to put my words into actions more than speaking out, yea it's kinda weird. mayb thats the reason i miss my 2nd chance to tell her? these thing might connected if i think carefully but all i can do now is wait and wait for something i din know what will happen next. oh and i need to start to speak even more starting tomorrow, cause chef want me to teach the new students around production kitchen, i would say it will be tough for me, i prefer work than talk >< guys =")">< bye guys

things finished so fast

2008-06-29T18:15:00.000-07:00

man i finished First Encounter Assault Recon original plus 1st expansion in 2 weeks -.- din know it could b tat fast >_> anyway it's the coolest first person shooting game i ever played :D really need to try it if u got chance!! plus with my new lappy graphic.. omg superb hahaha =x

hmm.. the letter i wanna send to Wei Lee still ON MY DESK. dunno wad i gonna do with it.. after putting the letter in envelope i dun feel like sending it out =.= stupid eh? seems so haha but elv said it's normal people respond O_O (a future doctor say de) so dun play play hahaha, lots of question of why is spinning around my head and it might get even more (who knows) o well i juz need to deal with it juz the matter of time haha if i can manage it or i can say not evading it.

this afternoon just re-watch shooter by Mark Wahlberg and i love the movie even more lol well it's like a one man show but it's more reality =p specially the sniping part LOVE IT man that's the coolest part of the movie!! but when playing counter strike im not a sniper peeps =p more to AK 47 or rifle type XD well talk about LAN game i miss alot here sigh.. walk so many places in Ottawa but juz cant find any cyber cafe = = it's like what the hell? lol i guess here more to PS3, Wii, Xbox 360 ><>_< and of coz i miss my dota gang!! LOL months din touch dota oredi... T.T
k ler i think i shud stop here.. for now haha dunno wad to write further >_< anyway take care guys! miss u all!! n all the best =p

volunteering

2008-06-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

yesterday i volunteering for helping out Chef Jean Marc and Chef Gills, it's pretty fun to see things in different point of view, i helping out as in a lecturer in the class :D pretty fun. and the ppl there are pay for a short grilling class on that day, pretty much it's their 1st few time entering the kitchen . helping and teaching other ppl is fun but i prefer on cooking for others =p see them enjoy the meal then i would b glad ^^.

almost 1 and a half months without contact wif wei lee le.. dunno how's she, i would say that i din miss her tat much for this few days.. mayb tired makes me wanna rest and lots of rest. oh well i gonna try send a letter to try my luck although it never been good in this thing, wish me luck then =).

almost 11am here.. and my friends still on their bed... sigh dunno when i gonna get my new laptop today! =( hope it's not too late... Sigh.. waiting sucks and i been waiting and waiting for nth. but somehow i really wanted to hug wei lee >< or hold her hand, i think i will b in cloud nine if tat did happen.. (daydreaming) *slap slap* wakey wakey. it wont happen to me = =

ah.. dunno how to end this blog.. haha anyway i gonna end here -_-" take care guys... and all the best to u all!!

busy day

2008-06-16T18:03:00.000-07:00

Friday our graduation for Intermediate... juz over and every1 is having fun in the bar. there's a phrase always right, there wont b a occasion that never end, there are fun time and there's sad time which is leaving time. but too bad i left earlier than them haha and kinda sad din get others contact that i wish to get =x oh well... im too stupid to do so either =x. anyway it's a very fun night tat day, some chefs join us in the bar too... and our senior.. ^^

Saturday, some of us had volunteered to help out in Earnscliffe (British High Commission), Chef John Leung it's a pretty cool chef and very nice person too.. willing to share experience and his achievement pretty cool, i really wish to work with him again if i got another chance, but i had to go production kitchen between the deal with Chef Christopher. Anyway that evening... i guess that's the very 1st time i saw sunset, and it's the most beautiful scene i ever seen.. wish to share with u guys but i din hv my camera with me, the timing is so gd, that's the time when we bring out the food and arrange in line =p so can keep watching the scene over and over again ^^ i would never forget about that scene. oh and there's few chefs that working in other place came over help out too they're very decent and very nice ppl too =) and of coz they're handsome hahaha

as in free time... nth changed much... think of her all the time spend times on animes try not to think tat much. the main priority is to get a new laptop then i can guaranteed that i wont think as much as i am now hahaha >< hell ="x">< anyway guys gtg ciaossu! =p take care my friends!! all the best! =p

exams

2008-06-09T15:08:00.000-07:00

recently i blog quite tight.. cause im bored.. dam bored of revision for exams... hate the time like this.. always make my head feel like exploding.. specially memorize the 12 recipe.. man it's not tat we're not prepared but some of them are just confusing.. sigh.. 2 days to go from now then it's time to search for new laptop!! the laptop i hving now i dun think it can last much longer... oh well, it's like 2-3years old which is quite old for a technology world.. haha or i can say pretty old with this kind of system barely can survive.. i wonder how did i survived for 5months here o.o another incredible news... haha wanna take a guess how long i din off my laptop?... i was planning to make it smoke by itself =x hmm.. ok here's the answer... i din actually count the days.. but it's around 3months haha well there's few restart in that durations though.. nvr off for more than 30mins XD i nvr tot if this laptop hv such a hardcore hahaha.

come to think of it... humans are omos the same.. they only will regret after they realize thing had gone or the chance had gone. it really feel very miserable with the combination of the songs... hmm.. i guess tat's a perfect sad scene for me to rmb haha =x but i really dun wish to miss the chance... or else i might b head bang on wall for dunno how long... (my fav move) ^^ since i always felt tat im too stupid to miss out that chance... n it flew away just like that, could it be that's the reason i keep waiting till now and still going?.. or izzit even stupid to keep waiting? for now i wont believe in miracle or i can say i nvr did =p

now i still cant decide i should write a letter to her or waiting for the reply... sometimes i make myself very curious to know the answers from her... i really hate to make myself think such things without knowing anything and start thinking nonsense grrr but it just cant help it, does it? most of the things just wont go as u wish for. there's lots lots of things i wish to talk to her and i wish to hear her voice the most and i dun hv her new phone num.. *disappointment!!* there goes the head banging on wall again haha joking just feel like it only =x k ler quite a long blog today hehe din realize i write so long >_> time to stop =p take care my frens ^^ best wishes from Form2 =)

good morning jog

2008-06-08T13:56:00.000-07:00

it's a very fresh a not really cold morning, during my jog i met lots of "friends" they're squirrel, chipmunks, duck and ducklings and cant miss out seagull =] oh and 1 beaver too =D although they din say hi to me, meeting them it's a great thing in my life =p hardly see them in Malaysia. the best part is i saw bunch of ducklings learning how to swim and their mother at their back following them not really exactly a line like the stories showed haha the sad thing is.. i din bring my camera along!! man miss out all the nice thing cant share wif you guys =(

well after the jog i try to memorize abit recipe for my exam.. oh man... my eye cant open wider than usual haha mayb coz of the jog =p then i dive into bed again. till afternoon.. get some slightly easy recipe done.. and here comes the hard part.. try to dig all the brain juice i got to get this right haha joking =p i cant do tat well in study... well hope everything is fine =) and pass this semester.. i'll go for my work-study program till next year plus my visa extended =D... din really wish to stay here longer but i feel like im running away from myself for sometimes, but working with the chefs is another great experience i cant wait for it ^^ 9 months duration.. hope i gain lots experience within the 9 months =p wish me luck!~ and all the best wishes to u guys!! my dear friends!~ miss u all. take care!! ^^

wild life

2008-06-06T10:52:00.000-07:00

ah... the wild life, i juz met a wild rabbit in the park... din know i get to meet 1 though haha there's some small bushes every corner i guess there's where they're hiding =p and i saw a beaver few days later to!! too bad i cant get near enough to take a close picture. and it just keep running away from me (darn it -_-)

well, a month had passed... and the "letter day" (the day that postman send letters to every1 weekly) passed and hmm.. still no letter from her.. weird eh? i guess i just being forgotten just like KC's email address forgotten too haha i wouldn't know izzit really that good to let it go... if really wanna blame just had to blame it on myself for being stupid to wait for so long and do nothing but wait till i missed the chance. most of the time i really wish i get the time machine in [back to the future] that movie.. pretty nice movie and funny, and it also very interesting =p. time traveling seems like fun haha but there sure had some risk for that.

well i had decided to go back Malaysia a year later from now... planning do work-study program in my college. in a way i can get more experience, buy me some time to think properly or can say im running away from myself. it's a very nice experience to be with the chefs. i dun wanna miss this chance like i did that on myself for other thing which i regretted badly till now still.

anyway yesterday my class hving "black box" which we need to create a appetizer, main course and a desert out of the ingredients that we dunno what it is till we get into the class... pretty interesting and challenging. my plating wasn't that good and need to work on it lot and lot more.. Chef told us that Superior Cuisine half of the semester will b black box. (SWEET!!) haha but i onli studying superior cuisine on March next year, before that i working on work-study program in college =]. and still waiting for the visa to get done asap. till next time... my frens take care!! wont forget about u guys =)

time flies

2008-05-31T20:07:00.001-07:00

time flies till i din notice another month passed... and exam is getting nearer.. but i lost contact wif Wei Lee somehow. still waiting for letter (the last thing i can counting on) days go by dunno it will come or not either.. well since i waited for so many years... wait for bit longer wont hurt i perhaps?.. something really bother me recently.. i couldn't figure it out why till now n still the same. well i dun think it's not a good question to write it out on post =p so i'll keep tat for myself to answer it ^^ "gomeneh" (bu hao yi shi in japanese)

1 or 2 weeks b4 Jason intro me another anime Katekyo Hitman Reborn.. it's a really nice and funny anime to watch.. and the soundtrack very interesting , it always made me moved/ touched >< well i guess tat's why it's a very good anime =p hope u guys din miss it.. ;)

ya lor merce... i juz keep thinking till i forgot to post blog =x not as hardworking as you are =p hmm... being a silent guy always make ppl want to know wad im thinking huh?... wonder why or what's the reasons behind it. but for me, most of the time i just need to b alone for a while, or just throw away everything in my mind for tat moment.. well i guess tat cant work on me -_-" nvr work (zzzzz) or another reason i being silent... wanna observe other's ppl =p 1 of my usual things to do xD i guess im the very rare kind hahaha would it be? (even myself dun think so =_=)

JiaTyug thanks for reminding me.. but i din check on my blog on time =x sorry about that, hope everything is fine there =D. i think i had to stop here le... time to go bed =p take care my friends! and keep in touch!~~ best regards from Form2 =)

1st long travel in Ottawa

2008-04-12T17:08:00.000-07:00

It's my 1st long distant travel in Ottawa, Canada. It also a school field trip to BEAU/ beer factory. it's not the biggest but the beer they produce it's really gd ^^ although i din like beer tat much... still it's light and can say it suits every1. Steve (the person who explain things to us) he explain everything clearly n very detail. It's a very gd experience for me... It takes around 1 hour drive to reach the destination.

Sometimes I just dun understand human beings... not even they older than me but they always act like kids tat din think before act. wad they did... i wont say anything bout it... after the trip me n my frens hving sth to eat at SUBWAY.. it's nice. after i hv a nice meal... there comes the complains again... sigh.. i know it's hard to accept "thier act" cant just leave it behind? it's not like no one dunno bout it. so yah... i was like "oh come on gimme a break will ya?" it happens all da time here... kinda sick of it. well i guess it cant change anything they seems like enjoying bout complaining =/

Sigh been thinking bout her lot lately... dunno i shuda call her onot... the cards tat she sent me sure is encouraging n motivate me a lot... but some of the words makes me wonder sometimes... wish to search for the answer but i was too coward to know it.. n dunno how to start wif the question... im juz like my msn personal msg... (silly) wish to know but dun dare to see the answer it seems dumb to do things like tat... i had ask lot frens how to really communicate wif girls... tat i really had no idea y i always so blank when chatting... even my parents not tat happy wif it. i hv lots of chat wif my close frens like gaming.. it's kinda weird for me too... dunno how i can change it... and wish to change it ASAP too =/ anyway i think i hv to stop here.. hehe quite long din blog oredi... sry bout tat guys... anyway i'll try to blog asap too take care and will nvr 4get to miss u all =)

long blogs...

2008-03-14T16:08:00.000-07:00

2nd march
i was very happy that my frens rmb my bday... n my frens here celebrate wif me too with sharwama, cheese cake n wine @@ i duno y... on our way to the restaurant i had a feeling tat things like tat woulda happen... n it did happen O_O for me it's very very rare tat things i tot bout will happen next haha... silly me.. =p

8th march
early morning the weather still ok.. but almost afternoon it start snowing again n strong wind.. omos like a blizzard for me... it was the worst weather i had in ottawa for the 1st time... the worst thing is.. my fren still wanna go for grocery... =/ so forced to go along... on tat night.. we going to fren's bday party but the blizzard still hvnt stop... we could dare to go out twice this time... then we sent the present on the next day... which is his real bday date =p

the week after... i juz called wei lee.. she's studying for exams... so onli manage to chat for a while... but still tat night i was kinda tired (physically not mentally) haha b4 calling her i was lying on my bed i tot i gonna sleep b4 i think of sth else... but somehow i woke up n wish to think bout calling her.. O_O i dunno when this things can stop... but it seems it's going down bit for now... =x dunno it's gd or bad too.. well still hope she's still the same person when i 1st met her =) she told me tat she sent the letter like a week ago... it's 2 weeks since she sent the letter i wonder where could tat letter b... =/ always wondering wad could tat letter bout... wad would b the content inside... argh.. help help cant stop thinking bout it >_<

on thursday class.. i heard bad new from my fren... his best fren juz passed away the day b4... and he look very very down n sad... i duno how to concern him... i wish i can do sth for him to dun think bout sth like tat for sometimes... plus the exam is coming very soon, so i hope he manage to pull himself together n prepare for exam, den visit his fren, i know how it felt... its really sucks, i tried everything to keep myself bz dun think bout other things, times till wash the bad memories away n keep those gd memories.

the day b4 exam... my classmates come to our house n we hv a study group... but it's like squeezing everything into the mind on tat day although we did the study group for last week... dun really like this kind of feeling, but still we need to study bout it rite?... so i take a break for typing my blogs =p den continue.. juz scare tat i dun hv much mood to study anymore.. juz hope 2day will pass very fast...

anyway gtg guys take care... cya

the toughtest part during winter

2008-02-28T18:22:00.000-08:00

i hv a small fever after the call... but manage to cool down.. but stomach not feeling well for 4days... which is quite annoying... juz finished my written exam yesterday.. it's not tat bad actually most of the question r common sense some need to memorize it of coz haha n yet some question we hvnt learned in class was in the paper... lots of student complain bout it sigh... but for me it's over tat's it tat's all :) juz like my chef likes to says haha =x

i nvr tot winter can b this bad... it was fun to see the pure white snow covered everything but when it melts n freeze back again den the problem come... n the wind chill was horrible haha u wont go out the 2nd time, wind chill can b much lower than the temperature in the winter itself, lots of children n babies "wrapped" with winter wears =X like dumplings lol

oyah.. last 1 or 2 weeks i been to kennel for ice skating wif frens... dunno y my knees hurts a lot during skating... but still manage to skate... hehe done it twice at msia... so wont b tat scary xP but the thing is i cant speed up... i also dunno y sigh... tried very hard on it... but din go well much xP o well... my fren says i need more practice haha mayb back to msia 1st den =p

this afternoon... my frens argue again... sigh in my mind is like... "there we go again"... =/ but this time is the worst i hv seen so far =.= wif such a small prob... y must argue bout it? both of them r much older than me but... sigh... dunno ler... quite "fan" also... if onli my comp not tat lag... i can open music a.s.a.p T_T n i dunno izzit gd or bad tat not to interfere them =_= but i always stayed in my room =X hahaha ok ler.. i shall stop here xP cya guys take care!!

days goes by

2008-02-16T17:54:00.000-08:00

sry for din update my blog for quite long times =x here it goes... during my way to class...on the top of the building there's quite large piece falls... den i was stunned for a while n gladly that we din take tat road which we usually took hahahah if not i might end up in hospital for few days too o.O

if not mistaken last 2 week's or last week Friday our class hv offals on practical class which is animal organs... E.G. brains, kidney, liver lol i onli can say tat... kidney hv quite a heavy taste... makes u wanna vomit =X others... not much taste but the brain texture... like ppl said it's very soft =) well i'm glad i get the chance to taste those...

last few practical chef says tat our group is getting better as in work as a team/ teamwork which is very glad to hear it. n every1 did a gd job on tat day.. and the chef was very happy :D but for the last 1-2 practical class i screwed up abit... which is my simple mistake tat shudn't hv done it... it wasnt i din pay attention during the class or mayb the chef is right the mistake that omos every1 did for the meat... well i hope i din make any small mistake again... ><

few days b4 was valentines day... n amerce had a gd time wif the girl he admire... well gd for u man... i'm happy for u too... haha wish i will have those time again... and i also dunno when it will come or will it come... sigh... things tat always in my mind... running round n round... but the time pass quite fast here... it's middle of Feb oredi :D anyway gonna stop here... haha hope i din wait to long for next blog =X haha take care guys... miss u!!!

disaster day

2008-02-05T09:56:00.000-08:00

it's been a while that din post any blog here hehe, sry bout tat... bz watching movie at crunchyroll n class =X
Friday, we're doing salmon for pratical class... well some of them get to fillet the fish... n the chef help us portion it out.... but the thing is.. we need to grill it... n the griller is not hot enuf.. =/ so most of the fish sticked on the griller for 1st side... (not gd for presentation) 2ndly i take too much time on my turning potato... which the size slightly diff then the usual we did... so i take bit more time on tat but too much on that... sigh.. my time management not really tat gd... n really need to brush up.

Sunday, we went to buy some grocery n on our way back we went to winterlude ( celebrate winter) it's really cool there's lots of ice carving =p there's some r from our institute... haha every ice carving impressed or amazed me =p even those who r broken... it's still a very nice carving which i cant make it =p fruit n ice carving not my kind of thingy =p n nvr tot of tat either hahah

Monday, pratical class... seems it's kinda easy but i take it juz a bit easy n when serving time i went tension haha so not really tat gd for my potage( soup) n i dunno y i always 4got to season it!!! damn it.. sometime i will season it but most of the time i 4got bout it =_= n they very particular wif salt. lucky the chef din say much simple mistake for my soup haha =x

CNY is getting close... 2more days to countdown haha.. din get the chance to celebrate it this year... my 1st year din celebrate CNY since i was borned LOL cool =p i think i gonna miss those event but not much was my fav = = dun care bout it too ahahha =x anyway HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PPLZ take care n get more ang pao this year yah... :)

normal day

2008-01-27T15:05:00.000-08:00

it's a pretty nice Friday night tat my frens n i went to Hanosh place for dinner or gathering after class... n Eddie made lots of sushi for tat day n all of it was very nice... he's the best chef among us... haha n experienced too =p after dinner we drank some sake, soju (korean wine) , n eric brought a red wine, slightly light... so not bad too... haha i get to drink 1 glass... always need to control myself... if not really easy get drunk =X.

saturday right before afternoon Eddie juz woke up n call us wanna join him at Korea Garden (korean BBQ restaurant) it's so different from any Korea BBQ from Msia n it's really really nice n also it's buffet =p haha not really exp too xP

Finally sunday we go to art gallery wif our roommate, Mahrie. the beginning was quite interesting... detail n realistic too there's a grape pic which look so real tat i wish i can hv them haha... after those normal but really nice pic... there goes sth tat i dun understand wad they drawing... things get bored... haha den i waited them quite long mayb 1hour... =X i cant stand it so juz sit aside n listen to my mp3 =p LUCKY GOT BRING =X

on our way back we're so hungry n went to shawarma palace for dinner, thier amount of food was HUGE haha my frens 2 ppl share 1 plate n Mahrie order away tat she can bring back n me... i finish everything there alone LOL n it's quite full hahah all of my fren r amazed xD a skinny guy can finish such big amount of food hahahha =x well the food can last me quite sometime too =D n on saturday early morning i called wei lee hehe... it's been a while too n i dunno how she know tat was me, haha o well... it's glad to hear her voice again =X anyway take care guys... cya miss u all

hang out

2008-01-21T14:24:00.001-08:00

it's friday, after class my classmate plan on hang out in a bar or club at night, so we went for it... it's kinda nice though... get to know each other more. n some even got special abilities hahaha... like Eric he's dam gd in dancing... lol not break dance but normal club dance.. he's really gd at it lol so far i hv seen he's the best =X n too bad i cant get to drink much... n bit tired for tat night after 1 1/2 beer n there i am... lol (tired wanna get sleep) =X tat night we went home at 3am.. n when i step outside the bar it's so cold i was shaking bit haha sure is cold at night -.-

saturday night, some of the classmate ask us wanna go to chinatown 2moro... they going to buy some stuff there so... we follow them total 6 of us going there. it's a pretty nice place to buy asian food, it's consider cheap i guess. tat night after we went home we go to fren's house Eddie was cooking for us... quite nice dish, it's really gd tat we all share our exp wif every1... learned sth from other ppl... those gd 1 of coz haha n we hv some korea drinking games... n korean wine called soju (nvr under estimate that wine) haha n i nvr do =p n i can control myself wif tat too n we all end up chatting all the way to 3am again haha once again cold cold night... but the moon was pretty tat night... wish to share wif u... >< frens =")" de ="p" worries =")" any1 =")">< sigh.. no news from it yet... take care my frens cya

new experience

2008-01-18T11:15:00.000-08:00

yest practical chef use butter to make puff pastry and normally we use pastry margerine for puff pastry in asia.. coz of hot weather... but here use normal butter... its kinda diff for the texture... n taste too n always on alert for the dough too... so yah... dunno i will make it onot... juz finish my practical class.. hvnt bake the dough though... haha hope nth goes wrong...

this morning was hving flu n lil bit sore throat... luckily mum helps me pack some medicine along =) thanks again... after a while i feeling better now... back to normal =D mayb i ate freshly baked puff pastry haha heaty =X

oya during our practical class, outside was snowing... wif some (consider) strong wind... haha not a heavy snow though but can see those snow flying around... n on our way back to apartment there's some wind... blew off some snow flakes from the top nth much juz feel like sand go thru onli =D need careful bit... n it's not tat cold 2day so pretty lucky for it =P gd luck guys... for working n study too... all da best, n happy Chinese New Year in a few weeks too haha early greet to u guys 1st~ Gong Xi Fa Cai!~ xD ciaos take care

here goes another day

2008-01-17T18:29:00.000-08:00

this morning msg wif sook wan (wei lee's best fren) tried to get wei lee's hostel add... o well still checking it... n i'm waiting too. it's gd that they finish thier exam b4 Chinese New Year... too bad Canada din celebrate it haha dunno when gonna see sook wan on9 again too...=/ o well the onli thing i can do is wait for now... =(

seems like things tat she said keep repeat in my mind... cant really 4get bout it... o.O strange huh... i also wish to know it's there any thing can make me not to think so much haha... coz for me i think it's not tat nice... >< n i always limit myself for doing things... =/ quite hard to go thru sometimes... but still manage to get over it... =)

come to think of it... there's quite lot oppotunity to get a gd job at Le Cordon Bleu... like cruise, some restaurant, if it's really possible i wanna work b4 going back msia... n also try get study work at Le Cordon Bleu too... well the study work thing minimum need to get my 1st semester done... so yah... hope things will go smoothly... >< dun wanna let every1 down either...
i think i shall stop here for this post... take care my frens ciaos, miss u all~

sigh

2008-01-17T05:15:00.000-08:00

yest practical class was quite gd... i did things well but juz the dough 4got to put 5g salt =X haha other than tat all done well ^^ i cant say i get the highest score too coz even the chef say it was gd overall i dunno how i did also rite? so wait for semester result better =) but my fren keep saying i getting high score =_= i din really did well in 1-2 lesson b4 also... -.- it's not like humble or sth, we cant count the egg b4 they hatch... tat shud b the right sentence to put i guess =X

missing some1 from oversea sure is tough... dunno i really can get thru this onot... but hope to contact wif her somehow... write letter also nvm, it take sometime to reach though at least still can contact ><>< i owe u man!! but hvnt get it yet... lol hope for the best ba... =/ everytime i heard the moment - kenny g it reminds me when i was with u... n some BoA's song too.. need to thank them for remind me of u... =)

oh.. i might request for study work too... it's kinda cool too... i can spend my time in institute... n learn more things other than class... it's pretty gd... hope it will approve me... i'll request it after my 1st semester... all my senior also said there was a very nice place to practice n learn lot stuff.. next thurs is my turn to help out the production kitchen...^.^ cant wait till then it will b a tired day though i guess it's worth it =) i heard tat there's cruise job... pretty cool dunno wad i will decide after i graduate too >< AHH... tough choice... till den i will do my best in my class =) take care!! miss you~

snowing~

2008-01-15T17:16:00.000-08:00

friday night, it's not really tat cold but the sky starts to rain when we're on our way back home... i tot it shud b snowing since the weather r cold... haha kinda strange though, o well it's not tat far away from my institute... =)

monday morning was snowing! haha it's kinda cool when the snow flakes melts on the face =p took some pic from the road it's quite a nice view but when i check it at comp... SOME ARE BLUR MY GOD T.T wanna cry le... sigh... wish to share wif frens de... =( no more le T.T!!! nvm try take it again...

the class r pretty cool in Le Cordon Bleu =D n nice classmates too... haha gladly ^^ somehow most of us din get to finish in time... (need work hard on tat) organization sigh... suddenly so tension bout those stuff... i usually get used to those things, i guess quite sometimes din work out =X ush ush gambateh ne!... haha take care my frens... miss you!!

cool saturday

2008-01-13T17:04:00.000-08:00

it's a very peaceful saturday afternoon (frens went out buy stuff n i din follow haha) watching movies... n my ears finally can rest hahaha coz most of the time they like to argue wif small things... as usual... sigh well nvm tat... i guess i will get used to tat soon =(... see or hear them also makes me think of wei lee >< why leh? =/

evening the apartment building got a party it's like get to know each other in the whole building it's really cool although i always silent (usual me) well it's an eye-opener too get to know more ppl here haha hmm... 1-2 days b4 temperature starts to drop but 2nite i went outside onli wif T-shirt n pants of coz xP not really cold n can see clear sky wif stars... =D long time din c any star in msia le... so happy can see here >< reminds me of the days i wake up early for basketball when sky still blue... n full wif stars... wad a beautiful view... =) nvr 4get bout it n of coz the day i asked her to take a view on the sky too haha

Sunday, din folo my frens again =x stay at apartment WATCH ANIME!! haha so enjoy =x juz noticed You are under arrest tat anime so nice but gonna remove soon in Crunchyroll T.T hope can find tat anime... haiz, y almost all nice anime licensed? T_T WHY.... anyway TAKE CARE MY FRENS!!!

sad news always in my head

2008-01-10T14:10:00.000-08:00

on 1/1/2008 new year tat day on toronto got 1 girl was murdered by the street... it makes me so sad all of the sudden... the ambulance can't reach coz mistake on the street... kinda messed up also... sigh really really sad bout her... she's onli 14!! such a young age... n on new year... sigh... i wish i could go to her candle-light pocession till i saw the newspaper, it really hv a big crowd there hope she can rest in peace... =( n the guy who killed her get caught n be punished to w/e the law will do wif it... sigh.. till now it still in my mind

well there's gd news at my apartment here... the building held a party on sat, it's like get-to-know each other in the building which is pretty cool bout it... can't wait till tat days... it seems like the temperature it's dropping again, during our way to supplement shop, we felt it... haha so yah gonna get prepared for the cold liao lu... =) stop here 1st hehe dunno wad to write liao... anyway take care ya my dear frens!

long long post

2008-01-09T16:29:00.000-08:00

New Year Eve In Canada
It’s a very cold snowy morning in Canada wondering how she celebrates New Year last nite in Malaysia…. This morning was snowing not heavily luckily =) when me n my frens take a walk to other place, I feel like I walking in snow powder… very soft comfort but need to careful also haha it still snow.. quite slippery if not careful so yah… I went out to balcony for a view.. not a very nice view tho but satisfying haha… last few days I went out to balcony for breakfast juz wif normal cloths well it’s cold of coz but it’s kinda fun too =x cool experience.

Most of the time I tot bout her… which is not a very gd thing yet… I guess. Juz been here for few days n missing her like crazy oredi… dunno how I gonna survive for 9 months or so… O.O tat sucks.. =( n every time I saw Dior I think bout her also… tat she went for part time job b4 starting her course >< let’s juz hope I dun think tat much when my class start. Hope tat would b better… 9months to 1 year time… can’t say too long nor too short but I willing to take tat challenge. I gonna work as hard as possible my parents uncles n aunties, cousins n frens also hoping to see me in tat time. Can’t give up so easily either haha I guess the pain of missing some1 will still b there n I also dunno when it will gone or anything coz I tot of her relationship gonna b a long 1 or forever too… well here got some pretty girls too but juz can’t do it haha (same old form2) =P mayb Chinese will b better to communicate here lol or can say they’re not my type?... wont know till I figure it out… (gimme some time) haha I’ll try to tell u next time ^^

Wad is happening?
Most of the time I really dunno wad my frens who go to Canada wif me = =. They like to argue lot n lot =/ but after a while back together (a guy n a girl) haha I dun think I need to explain bout it more… but if wanna apologize y wanna start it in the beginning? Correct huh? =x haha n every time they argue, I onli kept silent = = well sometime I will cool down their temper also… din actually helped lol

1 thing I notice bout Canada here or mayb same goes to other country… they very polite n friendly it’s like every1 jokes around doesn’t matter… so it’s cool quite fun living here too… their item such as comp or electronic shop (large 1) all item very neat n tiny not like Malaysia haha such a huge diff. (no wonder overseas r improving so much) xP but cant change Malaysian style also so… can’t help much haha wish to stay in Canada but wish to see her more =x n I promise her I gonna back too >< can’t break it hehe

1 thing in Canada it’s far much better to hv a vehicle wif u lol if wanna go buy stuff for daily use… n huge amount the store r quite far from my place tat I lived we take omos $20 to reach there… n there’s a Boxing Sales like around 1st of November to 31of December most of the item discount 50%-70% n it’s in everywhere but sadly we onli got few days to buy those stuff.. so din get much.. but my fren get a very gd desktop.. AMD dual-core, 3GB ram, n 400GB memory, licensed software, printer too n its like around RM 3k plus… it’s a very gd deal too… but dunno it’s gonna get tax for bringing back to Malaysia. McD in every country got their diff style as we know… but in Canada amazed me… they more on Arab style, n I saw lot of shawarma shop along the street… quite shocking ><

It’s 3rd day since I reached Ottawa, but the sleeping time still unstable haha rest not tat much can’t find the reason… I tot during winter time gonna rest longer hours. O well I’m too energetic I guess haha, too energetic on missing her =x din expect I did more than wad I written in sms haha

Days without connection
It’s been 3 days without connection since I lived in hotel which hv Wi-Fi. Try think bout a guy omos on9 everyday n most of the time chatting in msn last few months n suddenly puff no more connection lol feel the pain =( anyway it’s new year 2day… shud b happy hehe early morning in Canada start to snow again.. but it’s much heavier than yesterday so glad tat we made it yesterday on the last day boxing sales. Can’t say it’s not a bad deal though n quite benefits lot too. =x too bad we can’t carry tat much onli got 3 person n 6 hands summore we take cab to the place… hving limited usage need go for few rounds if got other chance ^^ I think I still can’t suit the time in Canada although it’s oredi few days in here… other ppl sleeping I was kinda awake oredi n it’s midnight here haha lucky got labtop if not I gonna die for boredom xP

Talk bout the snow… it’s pretty cool to see those flakes flowing down from the sky got big n small pieces… yesterday when we’re on the way to get cab I take some “virgin snow” can actually see abit of snow flower not too clear of coz I’m a normal human also ma right? Haha it’s really nice hope can share this wif her… wont know there’s any chance for tat or not… nvrtheless MISS U! haha it’s been hours snowing since morning… wondering when it will stop I wanna go out take a look how’s the view… but lazy wanna wear all those winter wear so din make it n the weather seems getting worst too o.O dun even think bout the 30days of night they walking in BLIZZARD! n it’s located in Alaska =x lol

Juz found out her favourite song… relaxing =) juz like I listen to Kenny G’s music… always cool me down n think bout the moment wif her too… thanks Kenny… he’s a very very gd musician I can say… >< can’t deny see his album u will know oredi =x hehe I guess I got into the worst… keep missing here badly aww… =/ 3more days to orientation… hope tat will keep me bz for a while den… hehe n also wondering when will the connection come… since we registered a line… sigh… miss those days chatting wif youyun… it’s been quite some days din chat wif her le… n dunno how’s she wif wei chen… hope nth get bad =) juz like wei lee n her bf… I guess… (guess onli) =_= oh ya 1 last thing HAPPY NEW YEAR TO MY FAMILY N FRIENDS =D dunno wad to write le… gonna check wad’s gonna cook for lunch here… stop right here 1st… ^^

FREEZING DAY
2nd Jan 2008 we went out for some supplement on the way there was totally freezing… temperature outside was -19degree Celsius (few degree lower than walk-in freezer) -.- my face was like frozen n we take few stop in the shop few times for warm up too… n it’s our 1st time to stop few times for warming.. haha so my advise dun try it =x unless u really wanna try out sth very very very thrilling lol n exciting mayb >< my ears r painful coz of the coldness even wif the cap covered.

Lucky my room not really tat cold… although the heater not working well gonna check bout it. N still no connection till 2day… mayb the connection came on 4th Jan midnight here… gonna wait for it no matter wat haha. Hope everything is fine at Malaysia… Fei (roommate) says tat Dr Chua tio scam n forced to resign on tat reason too… gonna check tat out a.s.a.p wad’s happening in Malaysia and ya… ppl in Canada r really nice warming too… but still got some1 wanna try scam either it’s worldwide… lol on our way back there’s a lady asking for money to go to some place… some citizen tell us no need to care bout it so yah… haha think bout it… this kind of thing hardly happen in Malaysia (tell us to ignore it) =x

Its working days… n can’t chat wif youyun coz of connection sigh… but the day we get connection it’s the day we going for orientation too… hope tat din brings me down hehe well’s juz a orientation wont b lot things I hope… things gonna start on 7th Jan wont know how bz I gonna b n the timetable too… juz now got few class in a week though n hope tat gonna get me bz for a while… hehe gonna stop right here 1st… take care!!

ANOTHER COLD DAY
Class starts 2moro not really get any exciting or sth…. Mayb bit worry =x haha n the connection day which all my roommates r really wish to have it too lol N the weather outside still remain tat cold but not tat windy luckily. We got a new roommate at our apartment, n she’s a local doing sth like practical well… I also try to catch her words sometimes >_< hope I get better by times come =x so far I understand those promoter n other ppl speaking unless they speak French =_= wish I know juz few words during college days sigh haha last few night still the same sleep quite early… then end up wake up in midnight in Canada playing freecell, which break my very own record 16 win streak haha unbelievable so hard to reach there den my brain power went out…

After our breakfast we go for some supplement again to top up some too… we went to something like a souvenir shop and bought a key chain for her n my dad too. N bought some CD which is still on sales and it’s really really cheap… hope my parents dun scold me for tat… coz. It’s so boring here tv wif onli 1 channel and no internet… although I brought RA2 n Diablo2 but ONLI Yuri’s Revenge can play… I might gonna repeat the campaign on hard mode again = = I dunno y RA n diablo’s cd juz can’t b read in this labtop… argh… n 1 more thing I din copy ANYBAND – promise u into my mp3!!! OMG!! Lucky got Kenny G n of coz some BoA’s song hehe if not I scare I cant survive much here without internet n sth to do other than sleep which is a very very last choice for me and I can’t sleep if I not tired so yah rather dun choose it xP man this labby can’t stand for even 1 hour without electric charge =/
This afternoon I done another rather stupid or lazy haha I throw the rubbish to outside the apartment not far away n I juz dress normal T-shirt n long john onli lol not tat cold in the afternoon still can hold up for few min there… hehe hope my parents din see this or else I’m doomed.. Anyway I still doing fine here nth much going on yet… but class gonna start next week… I wonder how’s dexter’s acceptance letter’s going o.O he hvn’t getting it when I left… sad fella lol n wei lee’s final year on nursing course… hope she can make it… I know it’s a very tough course n I can’t help much too plus bothering her quite some time n think lots of nonsense when I had nth to do here again lol =x n Justin Tie hope he’s fine by now… at least still frens =) tat’s wad we always tot bout hehe ah… quite long blog this time gonna stop here 1st ciaos!!

Orientation day
This morning I did manage to wake up bit late… around 6 haha after breakfast my head bit dizzy so went back to sleep feel better after =) Le Cordon Bleu’s orientation was excellent more than wad I expected n the temperature start to drop oredi… wont b tat freezing on the way to Le Cordon Bleu… the news says it’s the anniversary snow rain last 2 days… (no wonder so freaking cold) n the knife set tat we bought in Le Cordon Bleu was far far much nice than KDU =.= almost got everything we needed in kitchen in tat kit so cool.

Even the chef here r cool, got 1 chef really looks like ratatouille’s imagination chef… there are 11 chefs in total at Le Cordon Bleu all of them hv a very nice exp background too such as work in best hotel or restaurant b4 or sth like tat… and 1 chef from Philippine his carving skills although I hvnt seen yet but I bet it’s among the best also… he won lots time in ice carving too… gonna hv the chance to see it too… hehe Le Cordon Bleu gonna celebrate winter soon, there will b some ice carving there wont going to miss it… I’ll try my best to get as much pic as possible ^^ share wif u guys ;)

Its 4th Jan oredi but the connection still din work yet… need to wait till Monday to ask for assistance in Canada quite particular in working days like Sat or Sun most of them din work so we’re forced to wait for 2more days then…

Days go by
Another day without connection my fren called the service center this morning but still din work… the onli manage to come on Monday so… still 2 more days to go… sigh.. boring day without any connection. (no connection = no internet = no IDD card = no calling) lol so many things can do on9 =/ n of coz gaming lol I totally bored with yuri revenge coz they know my tactic (even comp know my tactic “speechless”) -.- can’t win them anymore… argh n tat’s the onli game I can play RA 2 installed cant read after tat =_= Diablo totally can’t read also sien sia… wish to call her too >< wanna know wad’s going on around too =x

I juz notice 1 thing from my frens they playing with trust… which I not really happy with it… if u know wad I really mean… ppl gave u their trust n u fooling it around… whispering here n there… y dun juz say it out?... am I right? Or mayb I juz see some part of it… dun care le = = lazy to know tat Well I not the 1 who always speak out n not much prob with it also… tat’s y I din speak out much in other words I not really tat care bout those things I juz wanna settle things here study hard finish my course den plan for work till student permit over den go back to see her… hopefully her graduation too.

1 more thing tat they always keep argue… I can’t hv a peaceful day =( dunno how to stop it so nvr try bout it…or its another thing to improve relationship its argue? =_= sound so… weird =x I juz stay away most of the time… they walk in front I juz stay behind make sure I din listen to anything, they not gonna drag me in it also so yah din care bout it, stay behind some distance then think bout her.. =/ youyun I dun think I can 4get bout it… it juz can’t let go… T.T I feel sry for her also >< keep disturbing sigh… it hv quite some gd chance to work here mayb after my 1st sem which is dam nice… not gonna miss it if there’s any chance bout it n mayb after my course work for a month den go back… juz beginning of Jan but miss her quite lot also dunno wad to do n I always call my brain like for god shake let it down for a min plz =x silly me huh… always keep writing blog tat can’t b posted yet… till now quite few page oredi.. let’s juz hope on Monday it works… if still no connection I would rather die here =x
The day b4 class starts (Sunday)
Here I am sitting in front of my labtop… from midnight till morning den breakfast after tat continue again hours of freecell den lunch till the sky gets dark again… wad a Sunday I hving here haha n no connection… (dying) it shud b on Monday in Malaysia mum n dad shud b wake up by then n En too mayb wei lee too =x wish to call them once I get IDD card asap >< dunno how’s things going there in Malaysia… n most of all I need let my parents know my bank account num n add here =/ still need to wait 1 more day… sigh but luckily 2day going quite fast dunno y but it seems to be like it hehe gd for me =p

My other housemate bring her bf I guess she’s a local sigh… 2 couples here (wish to close my eyes n ears) haha mayb tat’s the reason I was in my room all da time on Sunday well nth much happens juz normal things onli =P. Dunno how long I can call thru IDD card also… really really need a connection asap T_T it’s killing me either… =x anyway I hope I can post these blog into my blog asap too =D quite few number here… =x

1st class day
It seems the temperature start to drop lot… the snow starts to melts oredi n not tat cold too… but the view quite nice though see thru straight road to far end got some haze wish I had taken tat pic… (too bad din bring my camera along =x) in the afternoon we’re back waiting for the technician come our apartment to fix the internet but it din make it… he came here too early while we’re hving class during tat time quite sad… miss youyun lot… wish to chat wif her now… n she juz started work an hour ago onli ><

2nite dinner was quite nice, my fren roast some chicken legs n other get salad… haha hv some time din eat those things oredi… it’s pretty nice too. During my practical class I accident touch my knife n I get cut -.- well it’s new though haha I get cut by my new knifes twice from the 1st day I used… during training I open my paring knife also same n 2day was the 2nd time o.o but the gd thing is the chef say my vege cutting quite gd… kinda glad to hear it but it does get lots trimmings haha =x (as usual) 2day I lose quite some blood too… lol when I was throwing rubbish I fall down get few small cuts plus this afternoon’s cut which bleed quite some time =x dunno is this call (xue guang zi zai) haha ask some Chinese fren if they can translate for u if dunno bout it =) well I gonna get some sleep soon… tired day plus fell down lol xP ciaos…

Dying for connections
Morning we went for supplement again but lot on sales item like Giants those store… item sold out. (aww) haha so din get to buy much… back n wait for technician to fix the telephone line… from 12 till now 2pm no1 yet… mayb need to wait till next session which is 6pm sigh… miss karyee too but all the time miss wei lee the class not very close though onli Monday Wednesday n Friday got class. Still ok coz we need to wash cloths also sometimes hehe but wad we heard from the seniors we need to turn 70potatoes or turnip for exam things or sth like tat… my god once we get the lesson gonna chip in money to buy lots of potatoes for practice. Oh n I bought some paper n envelopes prepared for writing letter for her de… but no IDD card yet can’t get her add T.T god help me omos middle of Jan oredi.

N I dun think I gonna watch latest movie for these 9 months also, since not really on the mood for it n saving =D

Hello Ottawa, Canada

2007-12-29T04:18:00.000-08:00

1st day in canada... during imigration at vancouver... woo quite some eng tao ang moh wor... haha youyun sure like it xP hahaha when i was in the KLIA sth i din expected to happen happened... O.O wei lee msged me >< kinda shocked when i recieved it... well n very happy too =) thanks for the bracelet again ya wei lee it brings luck to me too i guess haha well mayb not beautiful girls in japans... i happy for u too =) thanks to eugene n kc send me at the airport too n most important my parents , sry i din say tat at the airport... if future got chance sure bring u to japan hv a tour =D promise... miss u so much during every flight... wondering how u spent last few days b4 go back to college life... anyway all da best to u in college n relationship =) oya sis thanks for the letter i know wad's gd n bad for me =) y every1 keep say i very gd leh? =/ which i dun feel like i am anyway haha =x lastly i wanna say mum n dad i will take care myself here dun worry, n wont spent those things tat i dun need =)

during the flight to ottawa got a guy's beard... really really look like a goat... seriously haha if my sis were there sure call him mr goat or sth similar wif it haha but honestly when i reach vancouver i can felt the warming welcome from them =) so it's cool haha not really tat scare also. altho the security kinda strick, it's to protect thier country also... xP

after we went to hotel for the night, in the room we can see outside start snowing n kinda windy too (holy crap?) haha oh no i sound like archmed haha.. and here comes my new lifes =) n always miss u =) so... see u guys in a year n keep in touch thru msn ^^ miss u all!! n the special u =x bye all try get connection when i reach the apartment asap haha CYA TAKE CARE!!

oh my god...

2007-12-26T06:45:00.000-08:00

man... hvn't been thru like this b4 but my uncles n aunties sending wishes to me at overseas... >< know ="/" me =")">< sry to say it but it's wad i felt

well... i think i really need to apologize to wei lee for keep bothering u, but i juz can't help it... can't let it go somehow... =/ i dunno this 1 year will let me go down bit or not... anyway u're still my very best fren =) n u're still a very sweet person too n ur graceful smile.. nvr regret to b ur fren =)

so glad to b here

2007-12-25T16:59:00.000-08:00

yesterday night was a excellent night... the farewell party was sucessful, and i wanted to thanks to my parents lot.. my mum help me lot although she burns her hand =/ i tried to ask her to rest more... sigh din work... o well anyway my father did help me lot too... he's a very gd dad n cook in the house =D so if got other chance can try out his dishes =) i learn my fried fish from my dad too =D well not as gd as he is but still improving xP

all my neighbourhood frens are here. we hv lots of fun tat nite.... hope it nvr ends well happy time always passed very fast as every1 know bout it =) n so yea thanks for coming for the party n the present gonna miss u all!! hving the last 1-2days in msia... not really excited bout overseas but bit worry bout cant catch up... well i'll do my best =) keep in touch to all my frens ;) take care

its been quite lot over thots in a while

2007-12-24T01:28:00.000-08:00

juz went out wif her (wei lee/emily) everything seems like she nvr change much ^^ lucky pressure in her study din change her into another person =D hairstyle changed but she still the same (gladly) hehe so yea... hope everything goes well to every frens i know... =) oh.. n wei lee thanks for the bracelet, if u need a fren in anytime n can't find any1 i'll always b there for u =) well not really BE there haha =x n all the best to u n ur bf ya.. =) sometime u had a moment tat u wanna hv a timestop or repeating again n again.. well.. mayb tat day was the moment i want =x haha so happy to know so much bout u..

if in relationship de den i wish them all the best n happy togather forever ^^ oh n youyun dun think so much bad things bout urself also ma... hv confidence wif wei chen =D he's a nice guy too

sigh... i had a very happy afternoon... but evening parents naggin again =( y i can't hv a very happy day till nite?... n most of the time y my parents dun look at the whole pic den blame me but take a very small thing? =.= horrible... but nvrtheless they r right tho but i din do anything wrong till the very worst -.-

thing always meant to be like tat?

2007-12-20T05:00:00.000-08:00

i dunno wad i did wrong = = things juz wont b gd to me... like going out wif the person i really wanna meet b4 i leave... is so freaking hard =_= wad i wanted wont b happened... wad i though of also can't b happen... if so wad's the meaning of thinking? hell man

this sucks lot... does non-believer in God hving bad karma? =.= wad the heck is going on?... faith... does this thing really have in life? COME ON JING HAO THINK!! she's in relationship la = = bz coll life + relationship = VERY THIN CHANCE ONLI = = man i juz did talk to myself like tat =.= but all i want juz to see her for the last time?... also so hard huh...

most of the time i wish delete something juz like CPU juz press 2 button delete den enter done~ easy huh.. hope my mind can do tat... wont hv much prob on thinking all sorts of craps

wondering...

2007-12-14T05:38:00.000-08:00

2days since the last post here...BUT i feel like i been to 2 hours onli = = sad sad... now worry if wei lee really free to go out wif me on next sat... =/ n dunno wad to ask bout =< neither how to start a conversation wif her... man wad the hell am i thinking? i wouldn't know i will continue missing her when i left my hometown... well i still happy that i had met her =) no matter how life's gonna continue right? =)

since merce say i'm not a kid but a baby... den i think like AN ADULT lo hahahaha xP i tot i always think like an adult -.- haha joking joking ^^ n to all my frens... youyun, justin, jason, amerce, sia (mashi), vivian, terry, shun, yin bros, eugene, kc n every fren i know since i was borned I WONT FORGET U ALL!!~~ haha youyun dun worry lo =p can't chat in msn still can leave off9 msg or msg me in my blog ma ^^

Maple For Life!!!

2007-12-10T04:12:00.000-08:00

how can a mapler live without maple... LIKE ME ROAR!! = = hving a error tat can't fix... and even labtop dunwan me to play.... sigh... boring! last 2months also dun let me play maple = = SO CRUEL!!! my lovely comp also wan bully me... nth else i can do for it... man.. life sucks? haha well i'm glad to hv a warmy family =p but i was too "cold" in the family = = can't think of anything better than silent myself haha

i guess every1 hving the same old prob... being nagging.. which i hate it the most =.= y it always came to me?... sometimes not my fault also wanna nag me -.- sigh... let's leave this behind =p after graduate at oversea time to work!! (1year more) n live outside =X cool huh? haha dun do the same thing as i do~ not gd 1 hor~ haha =X now i sound like a small kid -.-rofl

it's a very funny world

2007-12-05T05:05:00.000-08:00

It really is a weird n funny world i live in. wad i think of wad's going happen it hardly will happened BUT in the other way.. i think of NOT gonna happen and it will happened naturally = = strange huh?... i wish i could explain this thru science but dun think even einstein can answer it yet lol or mayb psycology can tell o.o anyway tat's not the topic really is... haha let's continue shall we?

hmm... comes in mind i did wish for sth i not really want to happen but it juz came... was it me? or sth fooling me around? it's been years i wondering lol still no answer sad to tell =p anyway tat day i watched hitman very nice show.. haha THRILLING n excitment =p it makes me wanna play the game too haha but my comp sucks lot = = can't help it...

hehe sry for not telling wad i think of =p juz sth i wanna say ^^

nvr tot of anything in the future..

2007-11-30T18:07:00.000-08:00

well it starts when i was a lil kid haha.. or shud i start with "once upon a time" lol joking =)... wad i think bout the future or things might gonna happen soon in my mind it's like 70-85% wont come true... i dunno bout other ppl.. well yea.. there goes

hmm... it's was kinda sad when i knew bout they still on relationship... but it does feel better for knowing the truth and knowing someone better... so it feels good after a while =] i would know i really ok bout these... but ya juz hope things will settle down. i glad to know that they're hving gd time too so yea all the best to them =) AND! specially i need to thanks to my frens =] well juz like a sentence "a fren in need, is a fren indeed" yea tat helps lot thanks karyee n youyun ^_^karyee always be the "happy beans" or called pistacio haha i prefer the chinese name on it... and all my best frens on9 gaming fren n real life frens... u all r the best ^^ so glad to hv u guys around... joking around fooling around haha n lots more life's fun and nvr wish for more ^^ or too much =p haha kiez gtg watch HITMAN haha lots ppl say it rocks juz can't wait to watch it so laterz

oya and highly recommended ball of fury it will really laugh ur ass out man serious haha oh and some romantic movie which really nice to watch but not recently out haha... "Just like Heaven" and "Lake House" make sure u watch wif the 1 u luv haha it's really nice story... ;)

wish to know the reasons...

2007-11-28T18:54:00.000-08:00

sms that without reply.... makes me wonder all the time... wad it my own prob?... or it might be i think too much bout it... argh... hate those thoughts, thoughts that nvr get the real answers i guess. well, i bought some very cool movie which i missed in the cinema screen... Transformers and Die Hard 4.0 was a pretty exciting movie... thrilling worth to watch... ^^ try not to miss it while it's on sales now =P

sry to say my post are all short short de... haha i dunno wad to write for long one = = now left around a month to leave malaysia to ottawa,canada. gonna leave for like a year or so... these 4 years missing her without any notice... but not hving relationship yet sigh... missed 2 chances n i really dun wanna miss the 3rd chance... but it seems like it's happening which i cant do anything bout it.. the last time i saw her.. those graceful smile were missing.. mayb her coll life too stress... sigh which i can't help any out of it... =( duno well i not really blieve in this but juz wish tat god will always b wif her =)

Dunno Wad's Happening In My Life

2007-11-27T23:42:00.000-08:00

everythings seems to get worst.... sigh going sumwhere without the one i admire... really sucks... n i might lose it again... T_T seems like a normal BORING DAY again... nth to do for like few months ... gonna die soon... COD: bored... new way to die.. ^_^
wad i wish... n it will nvr happens.. quite a sad thing huh.....